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I am new to this but really wanted to find out if others are in the same situation as me.
My husband is suffering with depression, he has thrown himself into work and gets through each day. He is seeing a therapist but currently refuses medication.
He has suicidal thoughts and has shut off from me and our 2 year old daughter, he feels being at home is a trigger and he has many panic attack and sleeps less when at home, so he is currently staying with a friend who knows of the situation.
I am struggling to understand and cope at home on my own with our daughter, he calls me dailey and often sounds up-beat, he says he wants things to get back to how they were but doesn't see to the next day let alone what the future holds! I am at a loss and feel like he is calling the shots and our marriage is in his hands! I'm trying to be supportive but feel like is this what depression is? will it get better? Should i keep being so supportive?
Can anyone relate?
Nicola

My heart aches for you. This is truly a terrible situation. I can tell you that depression has caused me to pull away from my family. I have not physically moved away but I am distant and emotionally unavailable. These are hallmarks of the disease. I am glad your husband is getting therapy. It shows he is fighting to get better. I know it's hard but be as supportive as you can. This disease is truly a nightmare.

hello n1cnak ,,im a deppressed male i was taken by this evil when i was seven ,im 51 now ,my life has been very troubled and many times i have wished to destroy myself ,only over the last couple of days ,i truly think i met death ,but this was by stupidity and not choice ,anyway your
question ,i have been married and brought up 2 wonderful girls even though my life is nothing but misery ,i worked to even though i could barely raise my head in the morning ,its takes more strength and bravery than you can imagine ,your husband doesnt ignore you im sure ,but he is blinded by the depression ,and the need to carry on his husband and provider dutys will sap his strength ,he will need understanding and patience ,but dont bombard him give him space 43 years ive lived this way ,myself well i hide to true feelings of depression from my loved ones ,this to also takes great strentgh ,i dont know how bad he suffers ,but depression lies to you it whispers in your head and tells you your worthless and lower than everyone else ,shelf essteam goes
out the window ,i treid to end my live 3 times when i was 17/19 i was married at 19 and love my family i would not take myself from them now
but the pain is great ,and it take a strong person to carry it ,if i could be cured today i would give that gift to someone else ,i wouldent know how to live any other way ,on the up side depression has given me the gift of love and compassion ,i hope i did not frighten you here but maybe it may help to see it from this side of the fence ,my wife copes because she doent see the horrors of my daily life ,love your husband very much and tell him so ,the road he walks now is very confusing and sometimes he may seem like hes traveling alone ,but this is only to protect you im sure
ask me or anyone anything you like anytime ,and best wishes,this will be hard for you and i hope you can work it out look on the net and learn about the ill ness but be strong and dont give in we are all with you ,im not writing this as a oh poor him statement i just thought if you know how he may be feeling it may help you to understand and cope ,,,best wishes ,,,,,ken
you will get lots of support here and make new freinds