I'm 43, totally normal, husband, dad, good job, , and had just finished writing details about my day spent in tears at doctors with crisis team being called in, and am now on daily home calls to check on me, but after writing i rubbed it all out, and was going just to sign off but having a 2nd attempt,, sat here earlier feeling so low, tears, fear, head in a vise type feeling, not understanding why this has happened, just watching clock waiting to take pills to hopefully send me to sleep, just want to curl up and shutdown ,so scared about future, and alone, then i searched for sites on Depression, and for some reason reading about it has calmed me a bit,some how i came across this site and thought I'd ask if anyone else has had days like this, this morning suicide all i could think off, but luckely i found strength to walk into doctors instead,and thank goodness i am still here, what a horrid thing, off to take the sleeping pill they gave me as last few nights have been hell, awake at 2am lying there with mind going round and round and body all knotted up, but thats a posiitive as at 5pm i was desparate to have tablet, and now its 10pm.
So is it me , or is this how others have been, its not nice but comforting that you are not alone and not mad.
Sorry for boring you , hopefully off for a good sleep
I know its not just me, but I have had a bad few days
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Racric - welcome to the fourms! I think you will know by reading some of the posts here that you are definitely not alone! I give you a lot of credit for seeing the doctor... did he or she prescribe anything else but a sleeping pill? Did he or she talk to you about antidepressents?
((((Racric))))) Glad you are aboard!
((((Racric))))) Glad you are aboard!
Hi Racric,
Another welcome from the forum, to the forum.
Know what it like to feel like you just want to find a corner and curl up in it. When i do that I often say that it is turtling. I just pull everthing inside my shell and try to recharge.
Also do it at times tha I wish that the saying from Star Trek was true. That is could just say "Scotty beam me up" while I try to sort things out.
You are definately not alone in that part of your life.
I agree with Amy, you did very well at going off to the doctor. A lot of people have a lot of trouble in doing that. Give yourself a mark on the wall for taking that tough step. A lot of us know, that it isn't easy. Not a sign of weakness, but a sign of strength.
For a long time I used to have trouble with the racing thoughts. I seemed like no medication would work, the thoughts just kept going round and round. It got the point that the only relief I could find, was turning on the tv and the radio at the same time. I don't recommend it because I think that it added to my sleep problems.
I just needed the thoughts to stop, just for a bit.
You certainly didn't bore us by your posting. We are here to help each other and we all know how important it is to have someone out there listening to us.
What you post here is read. We do listen, and most importantly for me, don't judge. I am sure to the chagrin of others I tend to sit down at the keyboard and just let what is going on in my mind. Out.
Sleep, and keep sleeping well.
Look forward to hearing more from you in the future.
Another welcome from the forum, to the forum.
Know what it like to feel like you just want to find a corner and curl up in it. When i do that I often say that it is turtling. I just pull everthing inside my shell and try to recharge.
Also do it at times tha I wish that the saying from Star Trek was true. That is could just say "Scotty beam me up" while I try to sort things out.
You are definately not alone in that part of your life.
I agree with Amy, you did very well at going off to the doctor. A lot of people have a lot of trouble in doing that. Give yourself a mark on the wall for taking that tough step. A lot of us know, that it isn't easy. Not a sign of weakness, but a sign of strength.
For a long time I used to have trouble with the racing thoughts. I seemed like no medication would work, the thoughts just kept going round and round. It got the point that the only relief I could find, was turning on the tv and the radio at the same time. I don't recommend it because I think that it added to my sleep problems.
I just needed the thoughts to stop, just for a bit.
You certainly didn't bore us by your posting. We are here to help each other and we all know how important it is to have someone out there listening to us.
What you post here is read. We do listen, and most importantly for me, don't judge. I am sure to the chagrin of others I tend to sit down at the keyboard and just let what is going on in my mind. Out.
Sleep, and keep sleeping well.
Look forward to hearing more from you in the future.
thank you both for your replys, sorry for time its taken me to respond but started to feel better, and was afraid to have anything to do with depression in case it all started again.
But feeling good dident last long, and the other week for no reason just felt so low, and emotional, and did lots of walking to try lift spirits, worked for best part of a week then again today sat at work everything seemed too much, anyway thought I would type all about that in the main forum, so thanks again for your replies it does help to know you are not alone.
But feeling good dident last long, and the other week for no reason just felt so low, and emotional, and did lots of walking to try lift spirits, worked for best part of a week then again today sat at work everything seemed too much, anyway thought I would type all about that in the main forum, so thanks again for your replies it does help to know you are not alone.
racric,
Not knowing when the depression is going to return, is one of the things that scares me most.
I must be less afraid now, because I am not always looking over my shoulder, looking for it.
Unfortunately I think that everyone who reads you message feels that fear that is just how insidious depression can be.
Glad that it helps for you to post in the forum. I look forward to getting on sometimes and just let things go.
It is good to know that we are not alone.
Not knowing when the depression is going to return, is one of the things that scares me most.
I must be less afraid now, because I am not always looking over my shoulder, looking for it.
Unfortunately I think that everyone who reads you message feels that fear that is just how insidious depression can be.
Glad that it helps for you to post in the forum. I look forward to getting on sometimes and just let things go.
It is good to know that we are not alone.
definitely not just you
I'm so sorry you are going through it - too.
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