Its hard
Posted: Sat Dec 25, 2021 4:03 am
Its hard describing how i feel. I hate feeling like this. This darkness i feel. This hatred i feel for myself. Even on here... anonymous. Im still scared of being judged. I just feel so weak and stupid. People say i should open up but when i do i feel weak, embarrassed, corrected. When it comes to the latter i feel even worse.. stupid because i end up trying to defend my depression which makes that cycle of hatred for myself even bigger. I know i shouldn't feel this way about myself and i know people go through the worse. But the pain and darkness is still there and i dont know if it will ever leave.