Hello
Posted: Tue Jun 09, 2020 9:05 pm
Uhm, this is a last resort kind of thing, I wanted to vent anonymously a little.
I've been contemplating to end my life a lot, I'm a teenage boy and I know this'll sound dramatic for my age but I'm dealing with a lot at the moment; I don't want to go, actually, but I feel there's no place for me here either. There's always a contant discourse over who and what I am (as I am LGBT), and no one I can trust with these worries without feeling annoying. I wish I had a voice and determination... to let people know what I actually thing and how I don't agree with what they say about me and my communities...
I'm so tired.
I read the post before this one, I read how she's been battling stuff for 17 years while here I am, 17 and complaining about 6 years of literal youth that have been taken from me due trauma, depression and anxiety. I just wish I were stronger, or that I could have someone I could lean on. I've tried everything on the list--therapy, medication, friends & family, art, spiritual stuff, even, none of which have worked for me. There's only two people keeping me grounded at the moment, my sister and best friend. I owe them a lot. Yet they'd be so much better off without a burden like me.
Thank you for this space.
I've been contemplating to end my life a lot, I'm a teenage boy and I know this'll sound dramatic for my age but I'm dealing with a lot at the moment; I don't want to go, actually, but I feel there's no place for me here either. There's always a contant discourse over who and what I am (as I am LGBT), and no one I can trust with these worries without feeling annoying. I wish I had a voice and determination... to let people know what I actually thing and how I don't agree with what they say about me and my communities...
I'm so tired.
I read the post before this one, I read how she's been battling stuff for 17 years while here I am, 17 and complaining about 6 years of literal youth that have been taken from me due trauma, depression and anxiety. I just wish I were stronger, or that I could have someone I could lean on. I've tried everything on the list--therapy, medication, friends & family, art, spiritual stuff, even, none of which have worked for me. There's only two people keeping me grounded at the moment, my sister and best friend. I owe them a lot. Yet they'd be so much better off without a burden like me.
Thank you for this space.