8 Years In the Making, Seeking Others Who Struggle
Posted: Fri Oct 18, 2019 12:48 pm
Hello Everyone,
I was diagnosed with clinical depression 8 years ago, I've seen many doctors, psychiatrists, and therapists. I've been on a laundry list of different medications with varying degrees of success and failure. To this day, I fight, and I struggle. My brain is a mess, and I feel like I could literally make this post into a nonsensical book. This is why I have waited so long to post, I feel like nothing makes sense, and when I try to explain my thoughts I feel like they make even less sense. I have these conversations with myself, and ultimately I decide against taking any action at all. Recently I have been making an honest effort to make improvements. I've been trying to find some sort of support groups to go to, and am having little success.
I feel like I need to be around others who share similar struggles, I feel like we may in fact be stronger together. I have a lot to share, and I hope to do so with everyone if I can just keep myself focused and actually do it. I keep having this thought, "Maybe what helps me won't help others, maybe what helps others will help me." and I don't know what it means, but I am choosing to see importance in it. I'm finishing my post now because I'm starting to re-read everything and re-consider everything. If I allow myself the time I will change my mind and erase everything I have written and who knows how many more years will go by before I try again. I hope to get to know you all better and I hope we can help each other through our struggles. Thank you.
-Welby
I was diagnosed with clinical depression 8 years ago, I've seen many doctors, psychiatrists, and therapists. I've been on a laundry list of different medications with varying degrees of success and failure. To this day, I fight, and I struggle. My brain is a mess, and I feel like I could literally make this post into a nonsensical book. This is why I have waited so long to post, I feel like nothing makes sense, and when I try to explain my thoughts I feel like they make even less sense. I have these conversations with myself, and ultimately I decide against taking any action at all. Recently I have been making an honest effort to make improvements. I've been trying to find some sort of support groups to go to, and am having little success.
I feel like I need to be around others who share similar struggles, I feel like we may in fact be stronger together. I have a lot to share, and I hope to do so with everyone if I can just keep myself focused and actually do it. I keep having this thought, "Maybe what helps me won't help others, maybe what helps others will help me." and I don't know what it means, but I am choosing to see importance in it. I'm finishing my post now because I'm starting to re-read everything and re-consider everything. If I allow myself the time I will change my mind and erase everything I have written and who knows how many more years will go by before I try again. I hope to get to know you all better and I hope we can help each other through our struggles. Thank you.
-Welby