Practical advice needed ^.^
Posted: Mon May 07, 2018 4:04 pm
Hello. My name's Eske. It's not my name in real life, just the account name, but I like it and I'll use it as a second name. I'm a university student in my 20s. I don't know if I'm depressed or just have a shitty life, but I can't afford a therapist, so friends and forums (and an eventual safe line) are the only help left.
I need a plan to persuade my father to pay a therapist; I found a really cheap one that technically we can afford. He listens to the reasons why I'm supposed to need therapy, but says it's too much money. It's not much money, it's like one or two coffees per day. And he buys wine and cigarettes...
I don't have my own salary yet. I have no time left for work, except on summers. Last summer I worked, but spent the money in food, hygiene products and the like; I basically helped my father in supporting me economically. Now I don't have money left that are really mine; last week I tried to put aside the equivalent of 4 or 5 dollars, but at the same time the university canteen was closed for holiday (it's "free" food for me, because I pay it with the scholarship. It's pre-paid. I don't know how to explain it), the fridge was almost empty and, anyway, when my father decided to buy food (or found enough money to buy food) he didn't buy what I told I needed (more vegetables, fruits) and I felt sick for the rest of the week. So I'm not able to put aside money, nope.
I came at the point of planning to threat my father with suicide. I don't really wanna suicide, at least not yet, but I don't know what else can work. I'm not able to make a scene, cry, scream, throw glasses. I look functional, at most lazy or "blank". That's probably why he pretends I asked him nothing, for months. Almost one year.
Halp. :/
I need a plan to persuade my father to pay a therapist; I found a really cheap one that technically we can afford. He listens to the reasons why I'm supposed to need therapy, but says it's too much money. It's not much money, it's like one or two coffees per day. And he buys wine and cigarettes...
I don't have my own salary yet. I have no time left for work, except on summers. Last summer I worked, but spent the money in food, hygiene products and the like; I basically helped my father in supporting me economically. Now I don't have money left that are really mine; last week I tried to put aside the equivalent of 4 or 5 dollars, but at the same time the university canteen was closed for holiday (it's "free" food for me, because I pay it with the scholarship. It's pre-paid. I don't know how to explain it), the fridge was almost empty and, anyway, when my father decided to buy food (or found enough money to buy food) he didn't buy what I told I needed (more vegetables, fruits) and I felt sick for the rest of the week. So I'm not able to put aside money, nope.
I came at the point of planning to threat my father with suicide. I don't really wanna suicide, at least not yet, but I don't know what else can work. I'm not able to make a scene, cry, scream, throw glasses. I look functional, at most lazy or "blank". That's probably why he pretends I asked him nothing, for months. Almost one year.
Halp. :/