New here Dec.4/08
Posted: Fri Dec 05, 2008 2:17 am
Hi my name is Daniela.
I've been feeling extremely down. I was laid off of the job I loved 6 months ago, I haven't been able to find another job. I had many interviews but nothing came through.
I will be 30 in 3 weeks. I might have to go back to school because the jobs I've interviewed with said that I am underqualified. SIGH
Every week, at least, I experience depression, don't wanna get out of bed. I can sleep for near 12 hours if allowed.
I've been hating the way I look, everything I have, I've been avoiding contact with people (and family) because I know I don't look very presentable and I don't wanna even put make up on.
I knew I was moody before the lay off. I usually get really moody around PMS, but usually external things ticked me off. Now, I it's internal.
I've avoided a mirror in the past 2 days.
I will go to a career counsellor to see if I should change careers to make me happier. I don't know, I don't even know what I want at this point. One thing is for sure, I want the pain to go away, the pain deep in my heart.
I think I've lost myself. I get really depressed when I go on facebook and see that most of the people I know are doing good, happy, married/with new baby, or have achieved their career goals. I wonder, why can't I have that happyness?
Why?
People that care about me tell me that things will work out, that cliche..., the right job will come and will be better..blah blah..it's been close to 7 months that I am jobless. I have a university degree, and settling for a cashier's job it's my very last option.
Where did I go wrong? It's complicated. It hurts me to talk about me, I can't think about my life without shedding a tear of sorrow. Somehow I've forgotten all the times I was happy, I don't know if I was ever trully happy for more than 1 day at a time.
I even had the courage to tell my BF to find someone else, that I've got no right to hold him back while he can find someone who can make him trully happy. I also told him that if a great job came along and if I had to choose between him and the job, I would choose the job.
Anyone in similar situation?
Thanks D.
ps: I do want to get better, I haven't given up yet. I do all sorts of research and I found out about foods that boost the mood, I'll try it out and let you know how it goes.
I've been feeling extremely down. I was laid off of the job I loved 6 months ago, I haven't been able to find another job. I had many interviews but nothing came through.
I will be 30 in 3 weeks. I might have to go back to school because the jobs I've interviewed with said that I am underqualified. SIGH
Every week, at least, I experience depression, don't wanna get out of bed. I can sleep for near 12 hours if allowed.
I've been hating the way I look, everything I have, I've been avoiding contact with people (and family) because I know I don't look very presentable and I don't wanna even put make up on.
I knew I was moody before the lay off. I usually get really moody around PMS, but usually external things ticked me off. Now, I it's internal.
I've avoided a mirror in the past 2 days.
I will go to a career counsellor to see if I should change careers to make me happier. I don't know, I don't even know what I want at this point. One thing is for sure, I want the pain to go away, the pain deep in my heart.
I think I've lost myself. I get really depressed when I go on facebook and see that most of the people I know are doing good, happy, married/with new baby, or have achieved their career goals. I wonder, why can't I have that happyness?
Why?
People that care about me tell me that things will work out, that cliche..., the right job will come and will be better..blah blah..it's been close to 7 months that I am jobless. I have a university degree, and settling for a cashier's job it's my very last option.
Where did I go wrong? It's complicated. It hurts me to talk about me, I can't think about my life without shedding a tear of sorrow. Somehow I've forgotten all the times I was happy, I don't know if I was ever trully happy for more than 1 day at a time.
I even had the courage to tell my BF to find someone else, that I've got no right to hold him back while he can find someone who can make him trully happy. I also told him that if a great job came along and if I had to choose between him and the job, I would choose the job.
Anyone in similar situation?
Thanks D.
ps: I do want to get better, I haven't given up yet. I do all sorts of research and I found out about foods that boost the mood, I'll try it out and let you know how it goes.