Hello all
Posted: Sat Sep 17, 2016 2:52 pm
Hi all,
I'm struggling, struggling very much. I've not felt this down and out ever, even when I was unsuccessful hurting myself... That was close to three years ago, and since I've been struggling to stay afloat, to find a reason to get up, to live, to move, to want to do something fun. Each day gets progressively worse and worse.
I use to enjoy life back when, say seven years ago,,, I have had depression for 27 years now, with it getting progressively worse... I had tried, unsuccessfully to od on pain medicine, depression meds, sleeping pills and alcohol... If amazing I'm alive.
Since then all I think about is how to be successull, at committing suicide. I just read an article about "sneezing" and I can't say I've ever read a writing Crome someone else that feels the same as I. It was spot on.
I have a lot of challenges in front of me and I don't see a way out, other than death, I have no will or drive left in me. An aquentance died by his own hand not long ago and all I could feel was jealously. I was never like this. I need help, I've been down the emedicine, counseling, hospitAl routes before. I don't want to go through it again, why? Why should I?
That's all I'm going to write for now.
I'm struggling, struggling very much. I've not felt this down and out ever, even when I was unsuccessful hurting myself... That was close to three years ago, and since I've been struggling to stay afloat, to find a reason to get up, to live, to move, to want to do something fun. Each day gets progressively worse and worse.
I use to enjoy life back when, say seven years ago,,, I have had depression for 27 years now, with it getting progressively worse... I had tried, unsuccessfully to od on pain medicine, depression meds, sleeping pills and alcohol... If amazing I'm alive.
Since then all I think about is how to be successull, at committing suicide. I just read an article about "sneezing" and I can't say I've ever read a writing Crome someone else that feels the same as I. It was spot on.
I have a lot of challenges in front of me and I don't see a way out, other than death, I have no will or drive left in me. An aquentance died by his own hand not long ago and all I could feel was jealously. I was never like this. I need help, I've been down the emedicine, counseling, hospitAl routes before. I don't want to go through it again, why? Why should I?
That's all I'm going to write for now.