Scared.
Posted: Fri Sep 25, 2015 2:05 pm
Okay, I'm sorta new to this.
I always been the type to keep to myself. I always been scared to express how I really feel. Just wouldn't want nobody looking at me like I'm crazy. On the outside if you look at me you'd think I got it all, always smiling, beautiful, outgoing. But in the inside I feel lost, trapped, always sad. Been through abuse from age of 13-16. Always blamed myself for everything and always felt like I don't deserve to be here. Over the years I've dealt with my depression to myself. But realized its got worse when I started to cut myself. I've stopped for 2 years now. After I've been dealing with this boy for 3 years I've been nothing but happy. He mad me forget about my past and made me feel more alive. But recently we've been arguing a lot and he asked for space to get ourselves together. Now, I just feel myself going back to depression. Just feel alone. Scared I guess..
I always been the type to keep to myself. I always been scared to express how I really feel. Just wouldn't want nobody looking at me like I'm crazy. On the outside if you look at me you'd think I got it all, always smiling, beautiful, outgoing. But in the inside I feel lost, trapped, always sad. Been through abuse from age of 13-16. Always blamed myself for everything and always felt like I don't deserve to be here. Over the years I've dealt with my depression to myself. But realized its got worse when I started to cut myself. I've stopped for 2 years now. After I've been dealing with this boy for 3 years I've been nothing but happy. He mad me forget about my past and made me feel more alive. But recently we've been arguing a lot and he asked for space to get ourselves together. Now, I just feel myself going back to depression. Just feel alone. Scared I guess..