Scared.

[Adoresjamie]

Okay, I'm sorta new to this.
I always been the type to keep to myself. I always been scared to express how I really feel. Just wouldn't want nobody looking at me like I'm crazy. On the outside if you look at me you'd think I got it all, always smiling, beautiful, outgoing. But in the inside I feel lost, trapped, always sad. Been through abuse from age of 13-16. Always blamed myself for everything and always felt like I don't deserve to be here. Over the years I've dealt with my depression to myself. But realized its got worse when I started to cut myself. I've stopped for 2 years now. After I've been dealing with this boy for 3 years I've been nothing but happy. He mad me forget about my past and made me feel more alive. But recently we've been arguing a lot and he asked for space to get ourselves together. Now, I just feel myself going back to depression. Just feel alone. Scared I guess..

[Bardsley]

Hi. I can understand how frightening the thought of going back to depression must be, but it won't necessarily happen. You might find out that you're stronger than you realize, or reconnect with your boyfriend in a way that stops the arguments. I hope for the best for you.