Another Newbie
Posted: Thu Sep 25, 2008 11:30 pm
Hi, everyone. Thought I'd come and introduce myself. I'm fifty-one, single with no kids or husband. I'm the youngest of four older siblings ranging in ages from 11 years old to 17 years older. Both parents are deceased. I currently work for an insurance company.
As a kid, I grew up in an abusive household, both physically and sexually. I was always a sad and depressed little girl. Even at the age of two you could see in my pictures that I was very sad and sadness and depression is all I have ever known. They've been my closest friends next to fear, pain and loneliness. I don't think anyone in my life has ever truly understood me or what I was going thru. It's always been easier for them to deal with it by walking away from me.
I don't have anything to do with my siblings because of my abuse because they refuse to admit they did anything wrong to me. Plus, they've abused their own children and still they don't admit they have a problem. I haven't heard from any of them since 1994.
I don't have any friends anymore. The last friend I had was in 2003. I'm not much into anything, hobby-wise or entertainment-wise, I guess. I'm pretty boring person. I do like plants and fish. I belong to several fish forums but I'm not very active there. It's just to hard a job to make friends for me.
Well, I guess that's it for now. I guess I'll see if coming here helps. I haven't had much luck with therapist or drugs either.
As a kid, I grew up in an abusive household, both physically and sexually. I was always a sad and depressed little girl. Even at the age of two you could see in my pictures that I was very sad and sadness and depression is all I have ever known. They've been my closest friends next to fear, pain and loneliness. I don't think anyone in my life has ever truly understood me or what I was going thru. It's always been easier for them to deal with it by walking away from me.
I don't have anything to do with my siblings because of my abuse because they refuse to admit they did anything wrong to me. Plus, they've abused their own children and still they don't admit they have a problem. I haven't heard from any of them since 1994.
I don't have any friends anymore. The last friend I had was in 2003. I'm not much into anything, hobby-wise or entertainment-wise, I guess. I'm pretty boring person. I do like plants and fish. I belong to several fish forums but I'm not very active there. It's just to hard a job to make friends for me.
Well, I guess that's it for now. I guess I'll see if coming here helps. I haven't had much luck with therapist or drugs either.
and stuck by me. But I guess I'm not worth the effort. So many people consider relationships desposible so if they find something wrong with someone. They just throw them away and get a new friend. Where's the loyalty? Where the commitment? You invest 8 plus years on someone and they want to throw it all away just because you had some recent problems with each other?? What about the other eight years where you got along perfectly? Did that not count for anything??