Depression Understood Forums

hello. My name is Sara. I hav ebeen depressed for å long time now, since i started 7th grade. Now i'm starting i 10th. i look at my selvf as a worthless human being. Everything i do is wrong and everything I have put my sole to, has failed. I am often mad and is screaming and yelling at my parents and locking myself in my room. I often cry myself to sleep and try as hard as i can to avoid other people. I have body-image issues, so i keep saying to my self that nobody wants to see my fat body and my ugly face.

And worst of all is that myy parents doesn't understand anything! I have tried everything to show them that i am depressed without telling them. I even held a scissor to my wrist in front of my moms face, but she didn't say anything! She didn't care! And that makes me even more mad! And they care more about my little brother than me! that is so obyus! Both of my parents go to my brothers soccergames,, but none of them is coming to my soccergames! They help him more than me when we have the same issue and more! I feel so alone... That nobody cares about me... That the world would be better whitout me. I have had suicidal thoughts about just jumping from a bridge or hanging my self from my window. I really need help before i actually do it... Please... I really need it.

If you want to talk about it more. I'll listen