feeling so overwhelmed
Posted: Tue Jul 22, 2014 9:26 pm
Hello,
Every few years this depression, anxiety, overwhelming-ness with life keeps coming back to me. I don't like talking to my friends and family about it too much because no one wants to listen to someone talk about all their negative feelings all the time. I avoid my friends. I avoid as many social situations as possible because I don't want to spread my sadness to other people and I know they don't want to be around the "down" feelings. The older I've gotten I have figured out how to not be as negative when I am in this struggle and around friends at the same time but it's hard to keep it up when I am feeling so sad. I have a great life. I am 28, I am a mom of a healthy 2 year old and I have a great boyfriend, family and friends. I just struggle with happiness staying around. I remember one period of time when I knew I was truly happy. I was about 21-22 years old. I don't know why it happened then. I don't know why it hasn't happened since then. But I want it so bad. I am getting back on anti-depressants, which helps some but it doesn't cure it all. I have tried journals to talk about my feelings but I need something else. I need someone who understands. I need someone to help me stay positive or to say it's ok when I, some days, can't seem to have the strength for it. I am so overwhelmed. I am so tired. I want to be happy so badly. Thanks for listening.
Kelly
Every few years this depression, anxiety, overwhelming-ness with life keeps coming back to me. I don't like talking to my friends and family about it too much because no one wants to listen to someone talk about all their negative feelings all the time. I avoid my friends. I avoid as many social situations as possible because I don't want to spread my sadness to other people and I know they don't want to be around the "down" feelings. The older I've gotten I have figured out how to not be as negative when I am in this struggle and around friends at the same time but it's hard to keep it up when I am feeling so sad. I have a great life. I am 28, I am a mom of a healthy 2 year old and I have a great boyfriend, family and friends. I just struggle with happiness staying around. I remember one period of time when I knew I was truly happy. I was about 21-22 years old. I don't know why it happened then. I don't know why it hasn't happened since then. But I want it so bad. I am getting back on anti-depressants, which helps some but it doesn't cure it all. I have tried journals to talk about my feelings but I need something else. I need someone who understands. I need someone to help me stay positive or to say it's ok when I, some days, can't seem to have the strength for it. I am so overwhelmed. I am so tired. I want to be happy so badly. Thanks for listening.
Kelly