feeling so overwhelmed

[skelly627]

Hello,
Every few years this depression, anxiety, overwhelming-ness with life keeps coming back to me. I don't like talking to my friends and family about it too much because no one wants to listen to someone talk about all their negative feelings all the time. I avoid my friends. I avoid as many social situations as possible because I don't want to spread my sadness to other people and I know they don't want to be around the "down" feelings. The older I've gotten I have figured out how to not be as negative when I am in this struggle and around friends at the same time but it's hard to keep it up when I am feeling so sad. I have a great life. I am 28, I am a mom of a healthy 2 year old and I have a great boyfriend, family and friends. I just struggle with happiness staying around. I remember one period of time when I knew I was truly happy. I was about 21-22 years old. I don't know why it happened then. I don't know why it hasn't happened since then. But I want it so bad. I am getting back on anti-depressants, which helps some but it doesn't cure it all. I have tried journals to talk about my feelings but I need something else. I need someone who understands. I need someone to help me stay positive or to say it's ok when I, some days, can't seem to have the strength for it. I am so overwhelmed. I am so tired. I want to be happy so badly. Thanks for listening.

Kelly

[hazeleyes]

Hi Kelly. Welcome. Just want to say hang in there and I understand. I'm sorry I can't offer anything better right now, as I am struggling again too. I'm going to get back into therapy...again. I may just need a med change. I'm glad to hear you're going back on them. I know it sucks, but they do help. Maybe someday we'll be able to live med free and depression free. I wish I could send you more positive thoughts but that's all I have right now. Just know that I, and others, are here for you and understand what you're dealing with and how you're feeling. Good luck to you.

[Cougar2008]

Greetings, Kelly! Your story sounds so familiar...right now it seems like depression is stalking me. I don't want to talk to anyone, I will just hear people think I am going off the deep end. You sound like a kindred spirit.