I think there's something wrong with me

[ilovetdbears]

I don't realize it, but somehow I make everyone in my family angry at me. My husband is constantly saying I'm snappy. My son contradicts anything I say. My daughter gets upset, rude, and loud at just about anything I say that she disagrees with. My oldest, lets not even mention - there's actually no hope there at all. That relationship has come and gone. My grandkids are staying here, and all I want is to show them a good time, but I'm so unhappy with everyone always angry at me, that I feel it's best if I just stay away from everyone and lock myself in the room. I know I reason things out too much to the point of not even being able to consider suicide, but the thought goes through my mind so much.

[LorenzoJr]

Your situation sounds familiar to me in a lot of ways. I just recently left my job working at Whole Foods Market as a Supervisor in the Customer Service department. I'd been with the company for five years and during this past year I was growing unhappy with the job. It got so bad that I would come in to work every day with a I-don't-care attitude. With the help of my mom and therapist, I found the strength and courage to leave.

Speaking of my mom, that's exactly who you remind me of. My mom's depressive state was an all time high a few years back. She would go for weeks at a time without talking to us because she felt like she really didn't matter to us cause no matter what she asked of us we wouldn't really listen. In fact, it just seemed like we really didn't care.

At the time, what my mom failed to realize was that each of us was going through trauma. I myself I had been raped and I never told anyone up until about three years ago. I am 26 now and it happened when I was about eight or nine.

I wish that I could tell you something that could turn your situation around instantaneously but unfortunately there is no easy road. Therapy really helped my family out. Once we sat down in a room together we found that we really didn't hate each other. We just resented that fact that even though we lived together for such a long time, we never really spent any time together. But now, little by little that is changing. I'm not sure if any of this sounds equivalent to what you and your family may be going through but I still hope this helps even if just a little.

[SurfsUp77]

Do you do all of the house work, cook and all of that? Maybe you're sick and tired of being a servant to these people who don't appreciate you? Maybe your rebelling a little-vocally- and they just don't like that.