The struggle is real..

[Catfish]

Excuse the name. I realized the irony of using Catfish on a message board after I had already registered. I promise I'm not here to Catfish anyone. I've got plenty problems already that I don't need to add any more. There's a story behind why I used it that I'll save for another day.

As for me. 29 year old guy who's been dealing with depression since I was 14 or 15. A lot of ups and downs along the way. Periods of reprieve where I thought I had it figured out only to sink back to a low point. Diagnosed with "clinical depression" at 17 for a chemical balance, whatever that means. Did the meds for a while and got no where. Found poetry and have been writing ever since, just not nearly enough these days. Switched up to music (rap/hip hop) for a few years and recently started gravitating back to writing poetry. I think I'm a relatively good husband but my marriage is on the rocks. I think I'm a great dad but I question if I'm good for my daughter. I think I'm a good person in general. But I'm a terrible son and a worse friend, which is why I have no friends.

I'm not really here looking for "help". I know what I am. I know my fight. But someone once said that pain is easier to deal with when it's ours and not just yours. So maybe we can help each other. A collection of people who feel completely alone. There's a beautiful irony in that. Let's face our demons together, I suppose.

[TurtleRock]

Hello,
Welcome to the site

I like the cut of your Jib!

I have no idea what Jib is but its something a former employer of mine used to say.

I like your attitude I hope you stick around for a while