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[mromanzo94]

I'm a 20 year old male. I was diagnosed with anxiety problems and dysthymia when I was 15 and in high school. Throughout my life I grew up being my own man/teaching myself how to do things in life since my dad is crippled and my mom raised me and my younger sisters. Everyday felt like a challenge, especially when my parents said I shouldn't see the therapist anymore after going for 4 months straight when I was first diagnosed and saw him every other day. Now that I'm 20, not in school, work for a living, and haven't seen anyone or talked to anyone since about these problems, is a bit difficult when I try to make friends or attempt to socialize. I feel like a bother to everyone I know and feel stranded a lot more then I used to. I just don't know what to do anymore other then hope for an answer of some sort

[LorenzoJr]

I could be wrong but it seems to me like you worry a lot and that is something that I've gone through, as well. I believe that Depression is just another way of saying self-doubt because you spend a lot of time denying your worth as a person or as an individual.
Constantly remind yourself that being unique is a great thing and that isn't that the world doesn't want you around, it's more like there's something in you that doesn't want you around and so you convince yourself that its the people around you that are the ones who could care less about your existence.

Depression is a sickness that plays with how one views themselves. I'm telling you, if you start to focus more on you; building up your self-esteem you'll find that things will gradually start to get better. Now, it won't be easy which shouldn't be too surprising. I find that the right thing to do is always the hardest but I believe that you can conquer your depression like I'm conquering mine.

Writing is one of my ways that I am conquering depression. I have a book called The Depression Chronicles on Amazon which describes the earliest stages of my life while dealing with depression. You could check it out and maybe you can relate with it.