Newbie - the old feeling alone, disinterest and tears ....

[Vic1234]

Hey guys

I am Vicky, looking for some people to chat to. I have other illnesses but I have suffered depression on and off for many years since a loss and long term illness of a loved one.

I had an accident a few years ago now and slowly been collecting new illness after new illness it's like my body was not happy with one but its all getting on top of me and after several months battling the depression is definatly here. I recognise all the signs and feel so low.

Cried myself to sleep for 4 nights and a good deal of the days, pushing myself to bother making food after not really wanting to even get out of bed. Nothing is holding my attention and just feel so upset over everything.

I am suffering from the I am alone syndrome a lot and feeling like everyone hates me. Suffering chrisis with how I look as well because my illness is now causing alopecia which is actually the thing that has toppled my depression. Feeling ill was one thing but looking at my hair coming out has just pushed me to the wall and over. I know it's more just the last straw syndrome but doing the old going over it 3000 times thing, cant stop and just need to talk to some peeps that understand and do not just say oh maybe tomo will be ok xx