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Hello everyone and thank you to anyone that takes the time to read my post. I am new to this type of thing so I will probably fumble quite a bit.
Anyways, I have always had kind of a messed up life but only in the last few years(I am 27 year old guy) have I really felt like I am being affected by it all. I was always kind of a stonewall with my emotions but lately they have been getting the better of me. I have been far more judgemental and harsh with people than I am comfortable with. People just seem to annoy me or make me outright angry. I have lost the spark to do a lot of what I used to love doing and always just end up sitting with my head swimming in hate and pain. I try and fill my day with tasks that keep my thoughts in line but I just get bored and my thoughts always trail back to things I would rather not think about.
This ended up being a bit more rantish than I intended, sorry ^^;

Wow. You remind of me a few weeks ago. I was just so unhappy with my job and angry at myself, that I inadvertently begin lashing out against the people that I love. When i found the courage to quit my job it was the decision that made me the happiest that I'd ever been in a long time. Now I am pursuing a career in writing for writing helps me to be happy, even during the most terrible of storms.

You should that thing, whatever it may be, that helps you maintain even an inch of happiness during the darkest of times. Hopefully, it can help.

Also, I just released my first book entitled The Depression Chronicles which chronicles my life as I dealt with depression. It is the first of a series of three books. I am hoping to release the third sometime in November. You should check out my book. It is on Amazon and there's a poem called "Pain" that you can read for free. It tells a lot about the pain that I went through and maybe you can relate, as well.