Hi DepressionSucks,
It is obvious by your profile name that you're a person who places value in truth. Tell it like it is. Lol!
Depression, without a doubt, truly does suck. What's worse than depression is having to deal with it without the aid of a genuine friend. It's also hard, when you DO happen to have a friend you trust, but this friend will rarely talk on the phone. (forfeiting conversation for the alternatives of txting or facebook).
Have you known anyone who was/is this way? Well, I've almost forgotten the sound of my friend's voice, because we don't see each other, NOR do we have precious phone communication, as sadly, these have dwindled into the background of the past....
Did you say that you lost a friend of about eight years?
I'm sorry for your pain, and (((hugs))) around you. The friend that I'd referred to, of mine, I knew for close to ten. I understand how friends who've gone through so much together, become like family. It's not easy to lose a companion like this!
May I ask you what happened with this person? Is there any way possible to redeem what's been lost? (even if it takes some time to do so)? If there is a chance, I wouldn't allow it to skirt on past.
Please continue to post, at least to see if this site could be of some comfort to you. There are a lot of genuine and understanding people here. I've found some solace here, myself.
I hope the best for you. Take care, and remember
you're not alone when you're feeling depressed.