. Like probably most people i'm on a array of drugs some to pick me up, others to put me back down.. it's a mess! I'm not much of a talker and actually prefer to be left alone ( agoraphobic is in there too). so if i don't comment a lot that's just the way i'am. I'm just here for the most part to learn how others have been or are dealing with alot of different stuff. And like alot of other users I have seen on here i'am in IT with 3 different diploma's in microcomputers,Cisco networking and forensic analysis. Still tring to figure out how i managed that one. I mean, see i never even graduated from school got my GED. But did college and had honers and on the deans list for most of the time i was there. But since then and even when i was going my drive was cause my hips and knees bothered me. Figured it would help with confidence, It didn't both graduations were like ehh no biggy.. just didn't and hasn't meant nothing.. maybe just felt numb for sooo long!Hello
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Ok.. Hello all, not very good at explaining thoughts, because when i do i tend to wander off on that thought so if i tend to ramble sorry. OK now I'm 38 been dealing with diagnosed depression almost all my life as well as many different personality disorders 7 last i checked and schizoid disorder. Well according to my therapist the schizoid is kinda off cause i fit all the definitions of it except i don't live alone in the woods. Like a person can really do that anymore . Like probably most people i'm on a array of drugs some to pick me up, others to put me back down.. it's a mess! I'm not much of a talker and actually prefer to be left alone ( agoraphobic is in there too). so if i don't comment a lot that's just the way i'am. I'm just here for the most part to learn how others have been or are dealing with alot of different stuff. And like alot of other users I have seen on here i'am in IT with 3 different diploma's in microcomputers,Cisco networking and forensic analysis. Still tring to figure out how i managed that one. I mean, see i never even graduated from school got my GED. But did college and had honers and on the deans list for most of the time i was there. But since then and even when i was going my drive was cause my hips and knees bothered me. Figured it would help with confidence, It didn't both graduations were like ehh no biggy.. just didn't and hasn't meant nothing.. maybe just felt numb for sooo long!
. Like probably most people i'm on a array of drugs some to pick me up, others to put me back down.. it's a mess! I'm not much of a talker and actually prefer to be left alone ( agoraphobic is in there too). so if i don't comment a lot that's just the way i'am. I'm just here for the most part to learn how others have been or are dealing with alot of different stuff. And like alot of other users I have seen on here i'am in IT with 3 different diploma's in microcomputers,Cisco networking and forensic analysis. Still tring to figure out how i managed that one. I mean, see i never even graduated from school got my GED. But did college and had honers and on the deans list for most of the time i was there. But since then and even when i was going my drive was cause my hips and knees bothered me. Figured it would help with confidence, It didn't both graduations were like ehh no biggy.. just didn't and hasn't meant nothing.. maybe just felt numb for sooo long!Hey Phantom;
Like you I have a number of degrees that, when it comes to a career, don't mean much. I failed both english and history my senior year in high (also english in junior year). The only way a got out of high school was; the state (US) I lived in gave a standardized test to all the seniors and if you passed that you graduated. From that test I got a scholarship.
I love the fields I studied (chemistry and engineering) but can't seem to get out of bed and into work without most days without feeling completely addled. And this for most of my life. But for most of my life it wasn't "depression"; it was "being obstinate or "truent" or "lazy". I actually have a lot of drive. It's a bit shocking to look back and see how much of that drive I burned just getting my head together.
Like you I have a number of degrees that, when it comes to a career, don't mean much. I failed both english and history my senior year in high (also english in junior year). The only way a got out of high school was; the state (US) I lived in gave a standardized test to all the seniors and if you passed that you graduated. From that test I got a scholarship.
I love the fields I studied (chemistry and engineering) but can't seem to get out of bed and into work without most days without feeling completely addled. And this for most of my life. But for most of my life it wasn't "depression"; it was "being obstinate or "truent" or "lazy". I actually have a lot of drive. It's a bit shocking to look back and see how much of that drive I burned just getting my head together.
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