I'm trying

[Faithless]

Hello. I am here for help and support. I am a 33 year old woman, and have been struggling with my mental illness for quite some time. My official diagnosis is Major Depressive Disorder, and PTSD.

I'm not sure how much detail to share here. My life has been very difficult and very painful, and I do not trust people. There has been a lot of betrayal.

I am on Zoloft (200mg), and still find my depression to be unmanageable. I often disassociate, and I forget conversations, and directions at work. The "out of body" experience is a daily normality. And I hate to admit it, but suicide is a daily thought as well.

Because of a lack of money, I haven't been able to get appropriate professional help. I am on a waiting list to a psychiatrist (for free), and my appointment was set up for December 12th. That's a long way away.

So, there's my introduction! Thank you for welcoming me

-Faithless

[balcony]

HI Faithless and welcome to the forums. I am very sorry to hear that you are having such a difficult time. I would suggest you keep calling and see if there might be an opening due to a cancellation earlier. I hope things start to improve for you...please know that many here understand what you are going through and want to extend their support. You might check out our Chat room here as well. Chat is another resource where you can exchange information and give/receive support to peers.

Keep posting and welcome again.

[Faithless]

Thanks for the response balcony. I know I should be calling about cancellations I'm really bad when it comes to asking for help...especially when I feel like I am "begging". I'm working on it