Salutations, my name is Kaily and I would like to help

[Kaily Y]

Yes well. As I said my name is Kaily, I just registered, I am 21, and I have been a depressed basket case for going on 12 years now with a lovely 5 year reprieve from the deep stab to the heart life seems to give unfortunate people like myself.

Roll with the punches right? That. Or I am just very optimistic for a future I am also terrified to greet.

To many people out there my problems wouldn't seem so bad, and after a lot of stories I've already heard I can wholeheartedly agree. I have this strong sense of morality and lust for life that I can't even identify the source of however and want to help people in any way I can.
To many my problems may not have seemed/may not seem serious or real but to me they were and still are.
I know what it's like to stare down to the brink of death from the third story with demons no one else believes in telling me the best way to make peace. I have sobbed myself to sleep for nights and weeks on end wondering what was wrong with me and I have built the same walls around my heart as everyone else.
I have also been selfish and furious and, just like everyone else, have done thing's I'm not proud of.
Most of all I have been invisible to the outside world.

Whilst I work to try to change that for myself I would also like to help others who have ever felt desperate with no one to console them. I will try my best to be of any support and comfort.
It would also be incredible to make some friends as I only have one left. (Bless her strong-willed soul.)

Why can't life be like video games? When you're cornered by a problem (boss/villain) you can just run in circles and swing at things and you win!

Nice to meet you all!

[kathyuna]

Hi there. Nice to meet you. I'm new here too. I really agree with bout the video game theory. Haha. My problems won't seem so serious as anyone else too, but for me, it is real and I'm going through it. I not that optimistic . Quite negative, actually. But I wish that I can make a change. Help others as well as help myself at the same time. Lucky you to have a strong will friend. I have lots of friends, but I starting to scare that if I keep bothering them, they will be gone too. So, I starting to keep things to myself again, and constantly feeling lonely now.

[Grumpy]

hello,just tryin to talk,share...I'm not quite sure.Even with my depression,still care about others more all the time.Funny,had my depression hidden for some time.But it's out in the open now.seems most of my life I've always felt alone,regardless of who I might be with,or how many people around me.guess this kinda feels safe to me.

[balcony]

HI Kaily Y and welcome to the forum. I am sorry you have struggled for so long with your depression and anxiety. It sounds as if it has been an up and down battle. Please know that you are visible here and we welcome your thoughts and ideas. Thank you for wanting to support others as well. I hope you check out our chat room. Chat is another resource at DU that allows people to exchange information and share how they are feeling. Welcome and take care.