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hi guys,
im really unsure what i expect from talking on here but im hoping to gain some guildence and support, i dont have the most difficult life im 22 and live with my parents studying hairressing.i feel guilty that i feel bad all of the time i cant smile unless im faking it and my parents tell me thats what i need to do( fake happy will lead to real happy) i have a girlfriend that ive been with for over 2 years and i love her more than anything but lately she has been saying she isnt happy and she cannot look after me, shes gone to another country for a month and has said she will dump me on her return. ive felt lost, isolated and just plain sad since i was 13 when my pa passed away, i was there and heard his last breath and even as i write this im crying thinking about him and how inserational he is to me he was truely a great man and the word is darker without him in it. as i said i dont know what i want from this but anything is better that having thoughts running threw my head with nowhere to put them thank you for your time in reading this as i know it is long please get to know me and give me advise

daniel.

Hi Daniel,

Could you say who pa is please, was this your dad or grandad as you state you live with your parents.

Regards Lea

Daniel I'm so sorry for your loss and I understand your pain hon. You aren't alone in this. I think those with depression become the best actors in the world by "fake it until you make it" practices. You can fake it forever and it won't make you happy. However, there are a multitude of tools out there to help us find that lost happiness inside of us again. Counseling, medication, meditation, healthy diet, exercise, etc... Please talk to a counselor and see what program may best fit your specific needs in regaining a healthy and happy life. And know we are all here for you as well.

We also have a chat room here if you would like to try it out.