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[Sandman]

Hello i am Chris a 38 year old male. I have always had to deal with depression but the last three years has truly pushed me to the limits. I have been married for 20 years to my highschool sweet heart but three years ago she was diagnosed with colon cancer. since then she been through 8 surgerys, 2 rounds of chemo, 3 rounds of radiation and now going through cryo-therapy. everytime they think they got it it just comes back. Now the cancer is through out her abdonmial area. Through all this our marriage has also taken a hit and i am afraid of losing her either through seperation but most of all lose her to the cancer itself. I am to the point i feel like just giving up and am starting to drink and smoke heavier then ever. I get very antisocial. I have trouble sleeping anymore and when i do sleep i pray i will not even wake up. I just feel so lost anymore.

[Obayan]

It's not easy takeing care of an ailing spouse. I know. I did it for a long time before my husband passed. There are groups out there that can help you deal with it all. Talk to the doc and let them know you need a support therapy group to help you thru this.