i was a bit dubious about joining and posting a thread, im not really one for talking and getting things of my chest, im the one who hides it all in and puts a face on {as i can imagine a lot of others do}. I live on my own with me cats and suffer with depression, ive suffered on and off all my life but this bout of depression started at the beginning of the year and dont seem to be shifting.
ive tried to end my life several times this year dont seem to be getting anywere with it though just makes me ill. its a dissapoitment waking up on a morning and feel like its just a waste me being here. my doc has me on medication to try and help me but they just make me tired, i try hide away as much as possible as i hate interacting with people and get very anxious in busy places. its pretty embarrasing when i do little things like go for a pint a milk when i have to i get all sweaty to the point where im wet and when i get back i got to change my top and also feel like everyone is staring at me makes me feel so uneasy. does anybody else get the sweaty problem with anxiety?
ive tried cbt but it didnt work for me at all and they stopped my course when i took another overdose and sent me to the hospital. ive not really spoken to anybody and told them this apart from my doctor. all my mates think im my normal self but i feel like im going to explode cause i cant keep this face on
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anywhoo this is me telling some of my story and saying hi to you all
Sarah
Very nice to meet you. I live alone with my 2 cats too. I look forward to getting to know you hon.