looking for support

[cledwyn]

Hi, i was given some advice to look online for some support groups, so here i am. i am 38 and suffer from anxiety, depression and borderline personality disorder. it rules my life completely, i have highs as well as lows, i love the highs but they do come with a price - the low after, im currently going thru a bad low this week, well since last weekend really, constant bad thoughts including suicide, feeling like i cant cope anymore that ive just had enough, that this will never leave me, i do have good support in place, a CPN, an occupational therapist as well as my psychiatrist and psychologist, but you know sometimes talking just doesnt help and all you want is to be left alone. i hope that by finding you guys ill be able to get some support for the bad times and that when im feeling good ill be able to support others feeling low, thanks for reading

[Eric0620]

Hi cledwyn --- I can certainly relate to depression and suicidal thoughts. It really gets to be overwhelming and wears you down. I'm so glad you're getting therapy from different sources and it may take some time, but it will help. And as I've told other people, coming here is also an excellent decision you've made. As low as I have gotten at times, it's helped me being here interacting with others who know immediately what it is like. I've never had experience with anxiety or borline personality disorder, and as if depression wasn't hard enough to deal with you have that all on top of it. We're with you, though, through thick and thin, and want you to keep coming here for support. You, myself, and all others will get through our pain and being here for each other is the first step. Take care.

Sincerely,
Eric