So tired of feeling this way

[bluelady]

I feel on the verge of tears all of the time. I really dont have anyone to talk to, since I tend to frighten people or make them uncomfortable when I tell them how I feel. I have no insurance, and live in a state with little to no support for mental health care. I am have been taking celexa for several years now and only barely getting by. I have no drive, no motivation and if it werent for my kids (i am a single mom) i would never get out of bed. I do the best I can to put a smile on my face and go thru the motions of taking care of them, but feel like with this depression and anxiety that I may not live a very long life (not suicidal).......

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

Bluelady,

Welcome to the forums. Glad you found us, and just so you know there is a chat room connected with this site. Perhaps, go in and talk with people. Lots of support goes on with this site.

Do you see a doctor? Perhaps let him know your feelings and see about meds, different or more? Just a thought.

Do what you can to take care.

Warmsoul

[athrun]

I understand what you're saying exactly. I'm not a single mom but my husband is a truck driver and so is never home. I have two boys 10 and 8 and I struggle just to get out of bed in the morning and cook them breakfast. (anymore that consist of a poptart so I can lay back down and sob into my pillow. I'm finding that I'm very short tempered with them, and they seam to be doing most of the household chores. Getting up to do anything is a major struggle. Things I use to enjoy now seam like a burden. I've lost all interest.
Out in public I put on my smile and pretend everything is fine, but inside I'm fighting back the tears. I don't wanna be around anyone or do anything.
I've tried to reach out from time to time, but always feel I'm just being childish, or a burden to that person. So I withdraw.
I feel SO alone......that's why I'm telling you all of this. So you know that even if you (like me) feel like no one can understand and that you're all alone.... that no one cares.......
I want you to know YOU ARE NOT ALONE.
That I DO UNDERSTAND
and that I CARE

I understand and I care......because I'm right there with you. k?

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I'm very new here and don't know yet how to add friends or send/ receive messages yet but feel free to contact me anytime if you wanna talk. Maybe we can help each other through this.

[Dee]

Hi, I'm not sure where to start. This is all very new to me, but I feel a need to reach out.

Bluelady. I can truly relate to everything you said. I too feel as if I am just going the the motions each day. I feel nothing, I have no energy.
I have no one I can talk to. I am around people all the time but I can not comfortably talk to any of them. Most of the times I just feel like hiding.