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I'm nineteen years old, female. My whole life I've always been the outcast, weird kid and although I don't remember much of being a kid, I remember being severely bullied, so it's left me paranoid and I probably never really moved on...

I have been diagnosed with depression when I was ten, put on anti-depressents, stopped taking them after the bullying increased and kind of quit caring about life.

Although I come from a loving family, they tend to...get frustrated with me when I am at my worst...

Bleh, enough of that sad introduction, I am a bit random and I do try to help as much as I can but I doubt my own advice a lot.

Hope everyone is good today and see ya around...[/list]

Hi (((( misanthropicflower )))), welcome to the forum!
Like you I doubt my own advice a lot. ( Which is strange really. Afterall, I am Welsh, therefore I am perfect, so how could I ever be wrong about anything? ) But, I would like to ask to bear in mind that your life is important, and ask you to keep caring about it. ( I soooo hope that that doesn't sound like a cliche! )
I know that there are people in this world who are bullies, who are cruel, and who will lie to other people with a smile, and without a moment's guilt. Please believe me when I say that I am not, in any way, shape or form, underestimating your experiences of being bullied. However, one of the things that keeps me going is the fact that there are so many good, kind and gentle people around. People who have helped and cheered me in so many little ways. Ways that they might not even have noticed, but meant so much to me when I was feeling depressed and isolated and anxious.
Although, I'm still working on where I " fit in " in the world myself. I find it quite difficult to trust people with who I really am sometimes. And, then there are times when I can feel very isolated and alone. I think that what I'm trying to do is to strike a balance. I could say that I'm trying to achieve autonomy without isolation, and attachment without surrendering my independence.
I suppose what I'm trying to say is that, like The Doctor, I like the human race, they're quite my favourite species...!
I hope you'll feel comfortable on this site, and that it will be as helpful to you as it is to me.