I'm 16 and i first started self harming when i was 8 because i felt lost and alone. we moved to new zealand when i was 6 and at first i really didnt like it. but then after half a year i found a best friend and she was like a sister to me. but then after 2 years we moved back to england and i felt shattered. the night after we arrived my cousin found me upset with a cut on my arm.
since then the cutting went on and off throughout primary school and im still a major self harmer now. ive never been good with friends, my last best friend said they didnt care if i died. which makes me beleive that im not good enough for anyone and i have a few trust issues with people.
i was suicidal for the whole of 2009 and took an overdose on the 20th december that year. they made me have counceling which didnt really work so i pretended that everything was fine so that they would leave me alone.
my mum and dad ignored the fact that i was suicidal and a selfharmer when i told them, i guess its because they didnt want to think that their 14 year old daughter would do somthing like this. we arent the most talkative family, everyone tends to keep to themselves. but i am very close with my sister whos 18 but she seems more like my twin
but shes abit down aswell and she suffered from anxiety a year ago and it looks like it might be coming back.
A friend told me that this was a good place where people will understand me..so yh this is my story type thing...