Hi everyone...im sorry in advance for the very poor spelling but i need to get some things off my chest
Well im 18 years old soon to be 19
and for the majority of my life i have been depressed or down.I have never realy talked about my depression to anyone until early this year when to me the world just became to hard.Im trying to come to grips with my problems and try to figure out why or how it happins to me but it just dosnt make sense.Out of all of my friends I would consider myself as a loner type of person who stays clear of meeting new people or will stay home when everyone goes out clubbing or drinking.But deep down its like i want to be out there having fun with them aswell.Iv tried to cheer myself up by going out with them on occasion saying maybe Il change and have fun and finaly smile and be happy like them but when i am out i just want to be alone but when i am alone i want to be with other people and i dont understand why.When i am in work people will say im the happeist person they have ever met and how lively i am and how much fun i am to be around but deep down i feel ...horrible and alone...sometimes when i get realy depressed i drink but that just makes me feel worse there has been times were i have come so far as to do harm to myself but i just brake down...at night time i do feel scared because i want to live life like people i see around me but then i feel like theres no hope for me and its horrible.I dont know what to do.I have been to the docters about how i feel and he wanted to send me to a phyceatric ward?(cant spell sorry)but i was afraid so i never went.There is so many differnt feelings in my head at the moment and i would love to just put it down as hormones or some kind of biological thing but i just cant figure out how feel.At the moment it feels like i should just be alone and thats how its ment to be for me...which makes me realy down .
i just want to feel happy its the one feeling i cant rember
thanks for reading this and im sorry if its all jumbled or messed up ...im just writing how i feel
=[ damn i have another 9 hour shift in 8 hours hurray =[
havnt realy talked about it before
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I could lie and say il go and talk to people in person but i know i wont do it.Today was one of the worst days i have had in a very very long time 9 hours of hell in work finding out some horrible information i think this is as far as il get to ever talking to anyone properly about this.I just wish i could go covince myself to go get help im just so sick of this crap
Hi Frosty,
Come here and share some of your thoughts with us.
Maybe we can help boost your self-esteem some and you might feel more comfortable with "the outside world".
One of the good things I find about being part of an on-line group, is that you can write anytime. It doesn't have to fit into someone else's schedule.
You are safe here.
Come here and share some of your thoughts with us.
Maybe we can help boost your self-esteem some and you might feel more comfortable with "the outside world".
One of the good things I find about being part of an on-line group, is that you can write anytime. It doesn't have to fit into someone else's schedule.
You are safe here.
new here to, but what I can say is you have taken the right first step. I did this very same thing when I found out I had cancer. I found an online support because I couldn't talk to anyone else. Docs all talk medical stuff, and family and friends didn't get it.
Stay here and let these people help you. You will learn alot about your condition, what might or might not help you. What things are out there that could or that won't.
Stay strong and keep coming back. I love your name "Frosty" makes me think of the snowman, remember he melts, and the litttle girl cries, but then he comes back. Everytime he puts on the hat, its' Happy Birthday. You can come back to frosty.
Stay here and let these people help you. You will learn alot about your condition, what might or might not help you. What things are out there that could or that won't.
Stay strong and keep coming back. I love your name "Frosty" makes me think of the snowman, remember he melts, and the litttle girl cries, but then he comes back. Everytime he puts on the hat, its' Happy Birthday. You can come back to frosty.
Frosty
It's great you took the time to find this board. I hope you keep posting. I like Obayan's advice to you. This is a battle worth fighting.
I'm new here too and I am grateful I found this site. Who but those that also live with depression will understand how you're feeling.
Take care of yourself Frosty.
I'm new here too and I am grateful I found this site. Who but those that also live with depression will understand how you're feeling.
Take care of yourself Frosty.
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