say hello to Travis

[Travis]

Hi, I chose the name Travis after the character of Travis Bickle, the paranoid, delusional, borderline psychotic, misogynist and homicidal maniac rendered so thoughfully and convincingly by Robert de Niro before his career spiralled...

I always related to Travis, except when he took his girlfriend to see a pornographic movie to get her in the mood. Maybe they didn't have rohypnol in the seventies but I couldn't relate to that. I can relate to how he took rejection badly tho' and how he wanted to kill the pimps and perverts who exploited little Jodie Foster.

You most probably think I'm some joker who's just come in here to take the piss but really I'm not. I have a bad time with depression and it feels like a physical assault because I'm not a depressive person. I'm always noticing when the sun is shining and the autumn colours and even the prettiness and irridescence of a diesel slick floating atop a pool of filth in some pothole on an abandoned industrial estate. So it's not like I don't try not to get on a downer.. Ok, I admit I read the poems of Philip Larkin and I used to listen to Joy Division and The Smiths so maybe it's my own fault.

I just couldn't come in here and start with, 'omg I'm so unhappy' and that.... too predictable. In fact just writing this has cheered me up a little bit. In joining this forum I'm really hoping to find people who can relate a bit to how I feel and perceive some aspects of life. That's all for now.

[Obayan]

Hello. Welcome to the forums.

[crystalgaze]

Hi Travis!