Im a new girl here
Posted: Tue Nov 02, 2010 12:06 am
Hello everyone
I don't know if im depress but it feels like I am. I never seem to be happy or in a good mood. My work life is stressful that I just want to cry at times because no one at my work seems to care. I move an hour away from my friends and now it seems they hang out and don't bother to ask me to join them. I really don't have many friends since Im a quiet person so right now them not including me on some of there stuff is getting me down. I thought I was pregnant with my boyfriend of 5 years and I was actually excited till I got my monthly visit. Even though I took test before and even after my period I still have it in my head at times that I may be pregnant. I know being pregnant isn't the best time with our money issues but I still wanted to be a mother so bad already. My boyfriend and me have our own home and pretty much a married couple without the rings and title of Mr. and Mrs. I love him but the romance has died and it gets me down. One last thing im out of shape not like OMG im huge but seeing that I use to take dance, have a nice flat tummy, and was in shape and now I have a belly to the point that some people think im a few months pregnant and doing any physical activity makes my heart race. Sorry for this long intro to me but I have no one to talk to it seems. Every time I try to talk to my boyfriend he just tells me to stop thinking or saying bad stuff about myself. Oh and life sucks so bad right now that I think dying wouldn't be such a big deal for me. The funny thing is the thing I hate the most is the thought of dying and not being in this world but right now it doesn't sound so bad.
I don't know if im depress but it feels like I am. I never seem to be happy or in a good mood. My work life is stressful that I just want to cry at times because no one at my work seems to care. I move an hour away from my friends and now it seems they hang out and don't bother to ask me to join them. I really don't have many friends since Im a quiet person so right now them not including me on some of there stuff is getting me down. I thought I was pregnant with my boyfriend of 5 years and I was actually excited till I got my monthly visit. Even though I took test before and even after my period I still have it in my head at times that I may be pregnant. I know being pregnant isn't the best time with our money issues but I still wanted to be a mother so bad already. My boyfriend and me have our own home and pretty much a married couple without the rings and title of Mr. and Mrs. I love him but the romance has died and it gets me down. One last thing im out of shape not like OMG im huge but seeing that I use to take dance, have a nice flat tummy, and was in shape and now I have a belly to the point that some people think im a few months pregnant and doing any physical activity makes my heart race. Sorry for this long intro to me but I have no one to talk to it seems. Every time I try to talk to my boyfriend he just tells me to stop thinking or saying bad stuff about myself. Oh and life sucks so bad right now that I think dying wouldn't be such a big deal for me. The funny thing is the thing I hate the most is the thought of dying and not being in this world but right now it doesn't sound so bad.