Why hello there!

[Blaine]

I hear you. And yes, I think you're not getting bored because you've adjusted yourself to this way of life. Do you know it's illogical, still? I do, but I know it's not something hermits like us can overcome within a short span of time!! Unlike yourself, I have been outside of my apt when I get my check each month. It is then that I have to leave. Gotta pay the rent so I can continue hiding in the home I pay rent for. Hahaha! Though it's not truly funny? I don't know. In some ways, it is. Gotta laugh at myself!! But in no way am I poking any fun at you, K. So, who pays your bills, and buys the groceries, etc.? It's none of my business. I'm just curious...

Nah don't worry, I'm on the same page. If things are sucky the only thing you can do is laugh! Definitely when it is something stupid like being afraid to leave the house!

I'm getting a mix of DLA and some money that I've made from some web design I do. Luckily I can do web design from my house! And I can make orders on amazon, etc to get food x]

And don't worry about things being none of your business, happy to talk! Sorry about the late reply by the way!

[Blaine]

omg u guys seem so awesome it was wonderful reading ur posts! im sorry i dont experince what u have there blaine but if i ever can lend hand in explaining things or to helpo i defo will ! TAke care bubbles xxx

You too Bubbles! Think I saw you in the chat room earlier today, feel free to send me a PM if you ever need anything x]

[4EverMe]

Hey Blaino!
Don't we fit into a rather confined scenario! Haha. I had 2 say that! OMGsh!

And hey bubbles. Thanx for appreciating our posts and responding with enthusiasm. We need someone to cheer on our agoraphobic tendencies. Lol--I'm kidding! Thanku for your support.

Blaine, that's good (ingenius) you've found a way to order the groceries 2B delivered 2 your home. I don't know what DLH stands 4. I don't even know if I got thoz letters right. Haha. Do U pay the other bills online? I would, except my phn internet wldnt allow it. I have a computer--just can't afford internet at present lovely time. Have you read my 2 stories in New member introductions. That's only half of it! Imagine having to leave the comfort of your confines 2B standing B4 a judge 4 sumthn U ddnt do? And a trial coming up? Life can be so steadfastly upbeat!! U can pm if U wanted. I think U misunderstood me earlier?

[Blaine]

Hey Blaino!
Don't we fit into a rather confined scenario! Haha. I had 2 say that! OMGsh!

And hey bubbles. Thanx for appreciating our posts and responding with enthusiasm. We need someone to cheer on our agoraphobic tendencies. Lol--I'm kidding! Thanku for your support.

Blaine, that's good (ingenius) you've found a way to order the groceries 2B delivered 2 your home. I don't know what DLH stands 4. I don't even know if I got thoz letters right. Haha. Do U pay the other bills online? I would, except my phn internet wldnt allow it. I have a computer--just can't afford internet at present lovely time. Have you read my 2 stories in New member introductions. That's only half of it! Imagine having to leave the comfort of your confines 2B standing B4 a judge 4 sumthn U ddnt do? And a trial coming up? Life can be so steadfastly upbeat!! U can pm if U wanted. I think U misunderstood me earlier?

Woah, can't say I've ever had an idea of mine being called ingenious before! DLA stands for Disability Living Allowance x] It's basically because I'm not able to get proper work! Yeah I'm able to pay most things online, makes things a lot less stressful for myself. Can't say I have, I'll go read them right now! Kinda owe it to you after all the posts you've given me x] Don't think I misunderstood you? D: Just don't mind where we chat, was completely up to you x]

[4EverMe]

Awww. Thanx 4 caring 2 read thoz, as they're really quite frickin long! Lol--It will probably take you the next couple hours of reading B4 responding again. But that's okay! I just wish more people would give some reply/feedback to what I took a lot of time 2 write!! UGH...

Maybe it's that they care enough to read it. They just don't know how 2 reply bcuz they've never been there? Still, anything matters more than nothing, you know?

Alright, I was in ramblin mode! Guess I'll talk 2 ya soon.

[Blaine]

Awww. Thanx 4 caring 2 read thoz, as they're really quite frickin long! Lol--It will probably take you the next couple hours of reading B4 responding again. But that's okay! I just wish more people would give some reply/feedback to what I took a lot of time 2 write!! UGH...

Maybe it's that they care enough to read it. They just don't know how 2 reply bcuz they've never been there? Still, anything matters more than nothing, you know?

Alright, I was in ramblin mode! Guess I'll talk 2 ya soon.

Damn, that really was a long read! Very moving though, honestly had a tear in my eye for half of it. Would really appreciate some updates on what happens though! Sorry I'm quite young myself, so there isn't really anything I can add to the situation (Although I wish I could) other than that my thoughts will be with you, and I hope things get better. If it is any consolation, I know it is a bit selfish but I'm glad the suicide attempts didn't work, just having these messages from you today have made me feel a whole lot better about the problems that I'm facing. I hope I get to repay the favor!

Off to sleep now, hope to hear from you tomorrow!

[4EverMe]

Hi Blaine,
That was very nice what you said! Thankyou. I'm assuming you read the Clairvoyant page also? There were two topics! If you read them both already? Hey! Power to the eye! I do really appreciate your response, and felt it was from the heart.

[Blaine]

Hi Blaine,
That was very nice what you said! Thankyou. I'm assuming you read the Clairvoyant page also? There were two topics! If you read them both already? Hey! Power to the eye! I do really appreciate your response, and felt it was from the heart.

Oh god, there is more!? I'll take a look at it now x]

[4EverMe]

You're a riot. Haha. Thanx 4 checkin out my clairvoyant sh**.. I wish more people would answer...but, better they don't than shit dumed all over my seemingly dumb.psychic parade. Lol! I don't know what to say, at this point--just hope i haven't scared anyone off. Haha

[Blaine]

You're a riot. Haha. Thanx 4 checkin out my clairvoyant sh**.. I wish more people would answer...but, better they don't than shit dumed all over my seemingly dumb.psychic parade. Lol! I don't know what to say, at this point--just hope i haven't scared anyone off. Haha

Sorry about that, I wasn't actually able to find it originally. Had to find it through the posts that you'd done. I must say, you've been busy on the forums! But I've just finished reading it x]

[4EverMe]

Hey Blaine,
How are you doing? Yeah, I've been regularly busy on the forums. Helping me preserve my sanity!
Thankyou for reading my posts! No comment on the last one? Haha! That's okay. I think most people wouldn't quite know how to respond. It's nice that some are reading it though. Just in that sense, I don't feel so alone. But yeah it's really stressful dealing with this. What really can I say?? It sucks!

[Blaine]

Hey Blaine,
How are you doing? Yeah, I've been regularly busy on the forums. Helping me preserve my sanity!
Thankyou for reading my posts! No comment on the last one? Haha! That's okay. I think most people wouldn't quite know how to respond. It's nice that some are reading it though. Just in that sense, I don't feel so alone. But yeah it's really stressful dealing with this. What really can I say?? It sucks!

But I did reply! I had a little question about it, I hope you don't take offence but I actually found it oddly interesting! Check again buddy! x] If you can't se it because it is on your phone, I could always repost it!

I've actually had a nice day today, met a lot of really nice people around here. How about you? Been keeping yourself busy in your little cage? x]

[4EverMe]

Hey Blaine,
I'm glad you've met some nice people here, and that you've found something more positive to keep you occupied in 'the cage.' Yesterday, I just paced back and forth in mine! But later on, i was able to talk to a relative over the phone, then to a good friend. It felt like a gigantuan relief to get some stuff off my chest! They allowed me to ramble on to my heart's content. Maybe they could tell it's what I needed. You know how it is...when the dam breaks forth and words begin just flyin out!

Hope you're doing well--that you're not too bored and/or lonely. Isolation can be rough, even when we've chosen it! Also, yes, I finally found your reply to my post!

Please keep us updated on your well-being. On how you're feeling, okay? Take it easy, Blaine

[Blaine]

Sounds good, glad you were able to chat to someone! I must say though, they have nerves of steel, I've noticed that you can ramble on a fair amount already, god knows what you're like when it's a family member!

Yeah it's getting really sucky, but I'm finding that people on here n' in the chat room are actually very nice people. Added a couple of the people that I've met on Skype n' spent most the the last week chatting to one of them. So that has been rather nice!

I'm feeling good to be honest with you! For the first time in over a year of these people coming to my house, I was able to be honest with them and I really feel like I've made some progress! I'm stressing out a little, but I'm actually trying to get a hair dresser to come to my house. (SEE? Planning to leave the house!) I'm also having my health tests that they've been telling me to do all year, so that I can finally get put on some proper meds! Will be scary having somebody so close to me after shutting myself away for so long, but I'm looking forward to seeing what these things might lead to!

How're you doing? I've not spoken to you in a while! You stopped replying to the PMs!

[4EverMe]

Blaine,
I am SO very proud of you!! This is going to help you SO VERY much--these steps you're taking to get your tests done, and allowing some people into the house?! When I read this, my heart was (and IS) elated for you! Just go at your own comfortable pace.This is important. Take it one day, one step at a time.

It's also good you were able to talk to some people via Skype; Amazing what even minimal kinds of human contact can do, hugh?! Speaking of human contact, I HAVE answered pm's of yours lately! I haven't been ignoring you. From 'cage' to 'cage,' I'm here buddy. I'm also behind you, routing for you on your recent AND ongoing progress! You truly can do this. You DESERVE to escape that stuffy and lonely isolation. One day, you'll be in a happier place in life, and you'll look back and think, 'Wow. Thank God I made it. I can actually enjoy living.' You are not only helping yourself Blaine, but you are inspirational to others--like ME! Thank you.