I'm a bit scared...

[nlgalloway]

I didn't get a grip on my depression till I was in my mid-40's, after a suicide attempt and years of alternative therapies. When I finally lost it in the street, I found a psychiatrist who started me on a tiny dose of generic Celexa. After some time, that was elevated to about 20mg, and I've been under control for years.
Until recently, that is. I'm feeling it drag me down. I'm snapping at people, and am quite sure I haven't a friend in the world. My suicidal thoughts are back with a vengeance.
Getting care is a problem, as I live in a rural area. The closest shrink is at least 3 hours away - and who knows if we'll click? You can't trust just anyone.
I'd just like to have a friend to share these awful feelings with...

[dd-va]

HI nlgalloway
I'm sorry to hear that you are slipping back into the depression. Perhaps it would be beneficial to see someone, maybe a slight change in your medications could help to improve things for you. I hope to hear more from you soon, and hope to hear that you are doing/feeling better. Take Care!

[balcony]

HI nlgalloway, welcome to the forums. I was very sorry to read that you are struggling so much now. I would try to not think about the distance/time it will take to see a doctor, but rather, focus on how welcome some relief might be. I hope you find some answers soon and keep posting, we are here.

Strong hug, take care