Hello - another new member

[FloZo]

My name is Flo, I am nearly 30, single. I have periodic episodes of depression, usually connected with study, work, and relationships with my family. I work in a conservative industry where being open about depression is not an option, and with a family who, while loving and supportive, I find difficult to talk with about my feelings.

I find that my depressive episodes creep up on me slowly, and they manifest themselves in an inability to focus and concentrate and a lack of care about what I am doing. This, of course, is fatal in my profession, and I was once asked to leave a job where I had performed very badly indeed. I don't blame it on the depression, but rather my inability to recognise how bad things had got.

I got on this forum because I had thought that I had managed to sort myself out last year, that I was managing and recognising where my focus was wavering, until it emerged quite spectacularly that it wasn't, when I stuffed up a job that I was doing for my mother.

It was quite a shock for me, and all the feelings from the last year have come back, of worthlessness, of inability to cope, or inability to make things better.

The outward symptoms of my depressive episodes manifest themselves in not being able to concentrate on things properly, or not being able to pay attention. Hence, in hindsight, my warning signs are things like dropping dishes when washing/drying, forgetting to close the door, scratching the car when I park it, etc. Does anyone else have this sort of thing?

I wanted to say hello, to offer my experiences, such as they are to anyone, and to ask for any hints or tips that others may have.

Flo

[Obayan]

Hi flo. Welcome to the forums hon. We also have a chat room here you might wanna check out. Lots of really nice sweet supportive people here.

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

((((((((((((( Flozo ))))))))))))))))

A gentle and warm hug for you. Welcome.

Sharing your feelings here has seem to help many. You get the thoughts our of your mind for awhile and you find others that do understand and give support.

Please continue posting, visit our Depression Understood chat room, make many friends while there. A fantastic bunch of caring people here.

Warmsoul

[FloZo]

Thank you so much for the welcome.

[Obayan]

big hugs sent your way hon.