I have struggled with depression and anxiety for about 10 years. My abusive mom died when I was 15, and after that I kind of shut down. I'm now 24 years old, and spent the winter/spring in and out of the mental hospital. That was a new experience for me, and very scary. I'm still not sure if it helped or hurt. They put me on a lot of meds that ended up having bad side effects. I tried to kill myself and landed back in the hospital.
My boyfriend broke up with me a month ago, and it broke my heart. I wish I had better words to explain the pain that I feel. He was so special to me and I opened up to him in ways I've never opened up to anyone before. And he left me, as soon as I got out of the hospital the second time. It hurts everyday. I seem to have lost a bunch of friends in the process.
I work full time at a job I absolutely despise. I'm here right now, just staring at the clock counting down the hours until I can leave (7 and a half to go). Of course I have nothing to do when I get home, but at least I won't be here.
This last time I was in the hospital I was diagnosed with Bipolar. I'm on a cocktail of meds now that seem to at least be keeping the mania away. I'm starting a DBT group therapy soon. Does anyone else have experience with this?
Anyway. Just thought I'd reach out. Hope you are all doing well.
