Im not sure this is the right place to post, but im a newbie

[bloodynessie]

I have this problem for a very long time. It may have started out when my father passed away when I was 16. My own father was the only person that understood me. My friends they help me coop with my father's passing and help me be a stronger person. My mother trys her best to deal with me, but we just dont understand each other. We grew up in different countries in very different times. Living with her has been a struggle for me especially shes the hard parent. This was before my senior year. I finished my summer school even though I could of get the full refund. College life was hard since I withdrew alot due to my depression. My jobs were hard to bare since they werent good paying jobs and not enough to get your life started. I lost my financial aide and was force to work at another minimum wage job. They over work you for the low amount of pay. I cchanged schools for a fresh start in life and try to change what I am not happy about. I still havent started school because im,trying to save up and this job is also too strict and has a,high over turning rate. Im surrounded by greedy cutthroat people as well higher ups that got up there through politics. In that job or any job I had it didnt matter whether you work hard or not they manage to screw u over while your there. I hate working I dont get anything, but little money that I cant support my own self for. I try looking for another job, but the economy is so bad they wont even bother to look at my application. Im now 22 years old and still my life had been,the same even though,i try to change it. I messed up in school so many times, trying this art school to change, but im still dealing with that dumb job. My life has yet to begun. Now im getting to that point that I want to just begone. 5 years I have suffer from depression and its the reason why I havent gone anywhere. I would ask for professional help, but I just dont have the money right now. So this is the best I can do. I tried to talk to my friends about it, but they simply dont understand even my boyf. Thats the only thing thats going right is my relationship. Nows its even getting to the point that my suicide thoughts I have I would forget about my loved ones and think I would go along with it. Im still here, but physically who is around me wont listen or understand why I suffer this problem. So thats why im here.

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

Hello bloodynessie and welcome

This is a supportive site, there is a chat room connected with the forums. Always people there to chat with, share with and support each other.

I do hope you find that support, people do care. Give it a try.

Warmsoul