Battered Walls

[RenaMoon]

Yeah I'm new. No I don't take anything for my depression. For one I'm against taking medicine no matter how much better it should make me feel. Two I can't afford it.

And go figure it takes breaking up with a guy, a night of combining a weak alcoholic drink and one sleeping pill (ironic i know) to bring me here. Sorry for the details to anyone who is disturbed by such things. Just glad I stumbled upon a place I can finally voice my downs and downs of depression. There are no ups. Need an example, I've locked my door and am refusing to leave today. My lights have been off since I woke up at around 10:30 this morning and I haven't crawled out of bed but a few times. I can't stop these stupid flashacks. I can't do anything to distract myself. I feel like a bomb went off within my chest and destroyed my internal organs. I'm that pathetic. If I'm coming a little cross, that's because I am. I am angry with myself. I am angry with people for telling me to give people a chance. And before you get the wrong idea I'm not an alcoholic. I only buy one of the weakest of weak mixed drinks when it is all too much to handle, close myself off in my room. Drink half the glass then go to sleep.

Thought it was strange that I go by RenaMoon again. The name just kind of came back to me from when I was younger. I used the name when writing, a character of sorts. I guess now I'm that character of sorts. Displacement? Identity something something. Meh, it isn't that important.

Anyways before I keep going on and on about things off topic I'm new. Nice to meet you. Sorry about this being one of my off-days. There aren't many slightly up days for me but I'm usually much more nice and kind than this. Again I apologize.

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

Hello RenaMoon

Welcome to the forums. No need to apologize for an off day, we all have them.

This is a caring site, wonderful chatters. We have a chat room connected with this forums, why not give it a try. Lots of people in there that will talk and give the support they can.

Warmsoul

[RenaMoon]

Thank you. I know I don't need to but I apologize for yesterday. I was quite upset with myself.

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

((((((((((((( RenaMoon ))))))))))))

No need for apologies, we all have our 'bad days'. Glad you came here, vented and hopefully it was of a help.

Warmie