new here

[smh]

hey i just joined this site a few mins ago, I was diagnosed with clinical depression in November but I'm pretty sure i've been dealing with this for a very big p[part of my life as i really don't remember a time when i didn't feel like this. i have friends who have been very supportive but at the same time i don't feel particularly important to anyone and i feel really alone. i feel like such a burden to people and i'm also extremely awkward in social situations which can make work and college and just making friends in general very difficult for me. i just feel like i don't know how to be a normal person, as in every single thing i do is an extreme effort and some people might say that i've let myself go but i don't think that i've ever been really together. i just can't cope anymore and i don't know what to do. everything is just going so wrong and as cliche and ridiculous as ot sounds i feel like nobody understands me. i feel so pathetic and i hate myself. i've been on lexapro for about a month now, well just short of a month and i haven't noticed any difference yet but then again you aren't suppose to until bout 4 to 6 weeks. ugh i'm after ranting so much without even realising it and thats not even the half of it. any feedback or similar situations wud be appreciated. thanks

[crystalgaze]

Hello there! ~waves~ Welcome! Please look around the forum! You may find something on here that relates to you!

Take care! & please don't hate yourself or feel pathetic any more. Try to rule out negative emotions, as much as you can!

You can do it!

[Mel234]

Hi smh.

Welcome to the forums!

I agree with crystalgaze about ruling out negative emotions.
I've learned it doesn't help much at all. But I can relate to how you feel and such.

Take care

[smh]

thanks for the replies, it really helps to know that there are people out there going thru similar stuff. i do try to be positive, its what gets me through most days. if i didn't think positively i'd never get up everyday for college or go to work every weekend. i'd just curl up in a ball in my room and stay there. the later is oh so tempting but i do go out to college n work n try keep myself going. its just really difficult

[Mel234]

Yeah, that's what I like about this place. I'm not the only one and someone has been through or is going through what I'm dealing with so it's nice to just talk and they understand.
I struggle to get motivation but that's what keeps me going, school. I feel you on the curl up and stay in bed, it really is tempting but then when I actually do go out and go to classes and stuff it helps me.

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

(((((((((((( smh )))))))))))))))))

Glad you found us. This is a good place, to vent, read of others, make new friends. All efforts are made to keep things safe. Please continue sharing with us, as we will with you.

Welcome!

Warmie

[Monty]

Welcome smh,

I can certainly relate to being in the situation, of just wanting to curl up in bed and just drop out of the human race until I get it all together (like that is ever going to happen).

When they first start here, lots of people mention the problem of letting other people know, just how they are doing.

You have found a safe place to let out your feelings.
All of your posts will be read.
Just look at all of the replies that you have already gotten.

Looking forward to getting to know you better.