Feeling Stuck and Unsure Where to Turn

[skylerclooney]

Hi everyone,
My name is Skyler, and I just joined. I have been reading through some of the threads, and this is the first time in a while that I feel people might actually understand what I am going through.
The last few months have been difficult. I moved to a new city for work in June, and at first I thought it would be exciting, a chance to begin again. Instead, I have ended up feeling completely isolated. I do not really know anyone here, and most evenings I come home from work to an empty apartment. At first, I tried filling the silence with television or endless scrolling on my phone, but now even that feels draining. The dishes sit in the sink for days, laundry piles up unfolded, and I often do not have the energy to cook, so I just eat cereal or skip meals.
Sleep has been another battle. I lie awake until three or four in the morning with my mind racing. I worry about small things I cannot control, replay awkward conversations, and convince myself I am failing at everything. Then I wake up for work after only a few hours of rest and stumble through the day half-present. It feels like I am watching my own life from behind a glass wall.
I have not told my family how bad it has gotten because I do not want to worry them. The truth is that I am scared of where my thoughts will go if I keep isolating myself. I have thought about contacting a therapist, but I feel stuck Pips NYT, as if making a simple phone call is too much, and a part of me keeps asking what the point is.
I joined here because I hope to hear from people who have gone through something similar. How do you stop yourself from shutting down completely when you feel so cut off from everyone? And how do you find the strength to take that very first step toward getting real help when even small tasks feel impossible?