Hello

[Fourdave]

41-depressed, enough said ok, maybe not, my therapist hates it when i say things like that, the very short version of me is, I am tired, tired of being me, to scared to be someone else, and to paranoid to just end it. I do not know what i did in my life but I always feel when i walk into a church the holy water will boil. people say they love me, wife family etc. I never believe them, they love the person I allow them to see, not sure who really is in here but it must be really bad to make me feel the way i do. sorry get on a roll sometimes. back to info.... 41 on second marriage, 2 kids ( one in college) and have joint custody, well do not want to overload you 2 much.....

Dave

[crystalgaze]

Hi Dave. Welcome to the forum! Feel free to talk. I know sometimes here is the only place where I've been able to say what's on my mind.

Take care,
~Crystal

[Fourdave]

thank you, so hard going through this and only my theripist to talk to about it, my wife tries to be understanding, but she is from the "buck up do it" frame of mind, so any way thank you

Dave

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

(((((((((((((((( Fourdave ))))))))))))))))))

Welcome....there are people here to share with, that live with the life that you do. All the self doubts, the depression, all of it.

Please feel free to type and share. it helps to release the thoughts, to get support, with no judging you. And no 'buck up, shake it off' here. You know, all those things that people tend to say when they don't understand.

Thank you for finding this site, sharing as you have. it isn't easy just opening up to others, been there, done that. This is a caring community.

Hope to see you sharing more. If you feel up to it, there is a chat room connected with this site, lots of caring, good people to actually talk with, if you want.

Take care.....

Warmie/Jeanie