Hello i'm new here

[lonelysoul20]

I joined this forum as i'm feeling really suicidal. I am suffering from severe depression and mild anxiety. My boyfriend has just broken up with me recently and he was practically all the support I had. It sucks to deal with depression alone now, let alone the pain of the breakup. I want to fight for him as i know my depression was the root of everything. I want to get better to show him i'm independent. But it's all easy to say. I feel suicidal almost everyday at the most random times, whenevet something triggers me and I think of everything. The worse, my family doesnt understand mental health well and do not like me to continue medications (wtf). I have the support of a few friends but they fail to give me the emotional connection I had with him.
It's my last straw, if i fail to get him bAck, I don't wanna live anymore.

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[Polo1211]

I am really sorry to hear about your suicidal thoughts and your break up with your boyfriend, I lost a girlfriend to my depression and she was one of the only people who ever really got me and it hurt so much to lose her. I experience thoughts of suicide and self harm almost everyday and I know how it feels when it seems like you are all alone. The only family I really have is my dad and he doesn't understand mental health at all and just looks so uncomfortable when I try talk to him about it. Nothing I can say will probably make you feel better right now but just know you aren't alone in feeling like this. Feel free to message me if you would like to talk.

[kiwishelly2]

My heart is hurting hearing your words. I'm so sorry for all you are going through. I want you to know that there is hope and you can get the help you need to get better... and your life is precious and worth the effort to seek that help. Please call the suicide hotline 1-800-273-8255 and talk with someone there. You could also seek out a local church pastor who could possibly connect you with a support person to help walk with you through this. Please feel free to private message me if you would like to talk further... I do care what happens to you. I will be praying for you.

[specter]

The decision for you to take medicine is about your body, not theirs. Hopefully they figure that out some day....

I can't honestly imagine what it's like to have something like that, which seems very much like a lifeline to you, and have it ripped away. It's terrible that you're going thru depression and to have to deal with that unbearable pain. I wish they would try to understand. I wish more people would try to understand. Whole world needs more understanding. *sighs*

*hugs*

Are there any things you could do that would make you feel the tiniest bit better? Anything that would bring on just a little bit of happiness? If you feel like it, it's only an idea. Can't say it's something even I bother to do most times. There are days when I do, and days when I won't even try. You are where you are. <3

[lifeuptimize]

Hey I am also new here. You are welcome to this site.

[Irin-Adela]

Hello, I am new here, I also have depression and suicidal thoughts and I also take medicine..

[specter]

Welcome to the forums @lifeuptimize and @Irin-Adela.

[Cloud83]

I am sorry to hear you are going through this. I know what its like to feel incredibly lonely and I just want you to know you are not alone. It is hard dealing with a break up but to not have a lot of additional support I am sure makes it harder, hang in there.