Perfectionist Syndrome

[Brittanym29]

Hi my name is Brittany and I've just come to the realization that my perfectionism is becoming completely out of control and leading to anxiety and depression. I'm 23 years old and graduated from Business school with a 94% a year ago and am currently working in the finance/accounting field. While I don't have the job of my dreams (yet) I'm further in my career than anyone else I know my age... But for some reason I'm feeling more depressed and anxious than I've ever felt. I'm not sure if it's because this has been my first year out of school and I no longer have the high grades to make me feel validated (for some reason a "good work this week" from the boss just doesn't feel the same) or if it has to do with work at all. In high school I was a star athlete along with the grades and I've pretty much always had some sort of accomplishment to keep my ego up and now I've only got work and seem to be putting a lot of my self-worth in my boyfriends hands which is really not good for our relationship. Whatever the reason I know this is a problem that's in my head and I really have no idea how I can control it. I find myself feeling either on top of the world (when something happens to make me proud) or absolutely terrible. I really beat myself up when things aren't perfect and tend to have suicidal thoughts (would never go through with it, not a risk). I would really love to hear of any resources anyone has found and provide some support for people in the same shoes.
I've only recently linked my perfectionism to my anxiety/depression. Reading articles online really lit a lightbulb in my head. Here's an article that I particularly related with if anyone is interested: http://m.huffpost.com/us/entry/4212069

[indianaboy1982]

Sorry to hear you are going through such a challenging time right now. Your right putting perfectionism over many things has probably added to the depression/anxiety. Hope you are doing better I created a support group on facebook and the link is https://www.facebook.com/depressionsupportgroup

Only have 107 likes would really like to get this page going!