Broken

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Hi.

I'm not very good at opening up about myself. Even just typing here I'm afraid I'll say too much. I'm afraid I'll seem selfish or self-involved. I'm even more afraid that no one will really care.

I can freely admit that I'm not in a very good place right now. Lately I'm so sad that I almost don't feel anything at all. I know that's bad. I wouldn't say I'm suicidal but a lot of days I think about how much simpler things would be if I went to sleep that night and just so happened to not wake up the next morning. I know that's really bad too. I don't talk about it. Mostly because most people in my life don't understand what I'm going through and so, even though they try, they don't know how to help me. Or even worse they chalk it up to me having a "bad day" or just "over-reacting." I also just feel like I'm burdening them. I'm already a burden to myself. Why complicate someone else's life? I was able to open up to one person recently and we agreed that I need like-minded people that I can relate to and maybe learn from. I don't know.

I'm really scared. I'm not new to depression but I've never felt this empty and lonely before. There have been a lot of changes in my life lately and I don't know... I guess I'm feeling overwhelmed? A lack of support? I don't know...

[dy1ng1ns1de]

I feel you, my friend.

Just hang on there.