Where do I go from here?

[kimbers101]

I am so tired of hurting, of being depressed, of second guessing everything and everyone I no. I'm stronger than this, so why cant I get passed it. Let me explain. I m a 44 year old women. I've been married to the same man for last 25 years. I would have said we had a really good marriage, 3 wonderful children. I had no complaints. Then I was forced to deal with one of the hardest things in my life. I'm not going lie, I was sentenced to do 8 weekends in jail for out standing tickets from years ago. I never been in jail, was so overwhelmed I was terrified. But that was nothing compared to how I felt when I found out while I was locked up my husband, again of 25 years was sleeping with my very best friend of 10 years. I was so devastated. I havehave no family left. They were pretty much all I had left. How do I deal with this? Will I ever get past this? I now have no trust in any one under any circumstance. Please help!

[windsong]

Hi Kimbers, welcome. I'm sorry that had to be a very hard experience for you and sorry your husband did that to you. Trust is a hard thing to rebuild once its broken. I guess what you have to decide is it worth rebuilding for you and go from there. Its hard but not impossible, but seems either road right now would be hard so you have to choose the one you can live with and be the happiest you can with if that makes sense.