Hey there

[searching4life]

Hello everyone

I am 22 years old and I've been depressed and had anxiety for the most part of my life. It has been quite debilitating at times, and can get scary. I wanted to be able to talk to some people before it gets out of hand again, and maybe pull myself out of this horrid cycle.

I just discovered this site this afternoon, and it has already been a great help just knowing there are others who have similar feelings as me, like I am not as alone as I feel.

I'm looking forward to "meeting" everyone and hope to see you all around

[CAMARO]

Hi Searching4life,
I am also new here and looking for people like me. You said you want to avoid falling deeper into depressive mode but what is causing your suffering? In the meantime, i suggest you surround youself by positivity and things that make you happy even if it's harder than it seems.
Hope you feel better fast.

[searching4life]

Hi Camaro,

This looks like a great place to start, I wish I had thought to look for a forum years ago!

I'm honestly not really sure, I think it is a huge mixture of smaller issues joining together making my head want to explode and want to live in bed and never move.

I had a career I wanted to persue, but they basically told me I am not good enough, and all of my plans went out the window. I am the sort of person who needs a set plan, and this has gotten me pretty down, and anxious as I am really not sure what I want/need to do for work.

I might be pregnant, I am dating a fantastic guy, but our relationship isn't ideal, we only see each other every so often, and that can't change.The possible pregnancy is unplanned and going to be difficult to deal with.

I'm so afraid of death, mine or family members. If I think about it I feel so horrible, I get knots in my stomach and feel sick.

there's other causes, but this post is getting long.

I love photography, so I try to get out amd do that, it helps, even if I just photograph random things in my apartment. My family are life saving, and I couldn't ask for a better Mum.

We all have to stay positive, and take life one step at a time.

[CAMARO]

Hi,
You are Lucky to have good family surroundings. Some of us aren't that Lucky. I am afraid of death and sometimes that's the only thing that keeps me alive. I hate my job but got bills to pay and don't feel like doing anything. Don't know what I like anymore.
Pregnancy is a very touchy subject. I fell preggers once and because the guy didn't want children, i went beyond all my feelings to abort it for him. I went through a very long depression because of that and he stopped loving me because i was depressed. He just broke up with me last night. So i am in a very bad place. Was hospitalized and got home not long ago.

[searching4life]

I am so sorry to hear about your pregnancy. That must be incredibly tough on you. I can't imagine how emotionally painful that would be. I am sure that you'll fine a man who will love you no mater what, you definitely deserve it. Everyone does.

That is what I am worried will happen, he is going to try to guilt me into aborting to make his life easier. I haven't found for sure if I am expecting or not, I've got a doctors apptmnt tomorrow that I'm not looking forward to. I don't know if I can bring myself to abort the pregnancy, but I don't want to lose him eiher. It's a lose/lose situation.

I'm the same, bills to pay, but no will to work or really do anything. I've been having nightmares about world war and being alone lately, which don't help start off my day at all making the days feel longer and that much worse. I just try to pull through the day, take it 5 minutes at a time.