Hi everyone

[Brentlyp]

Hey there everyone. I'm new to this. I've never been on a website like this, but I'm just in need of some interaction with people that can possibly understand and relate with me. I've dealt with my depression for as long as I can remember. I don't know if I've ever felt normal. I've always coped fairly well with the exception of a couple of weak moments when I was younger. Here lately I've felt horrible though. Just this horrible feeling of loneliness and anger. I know it sounds horrible but I've started feeling angry and jealous of people around me being happy. Don't get me wrong I'm not suicidal or anything, just looking for support from others that know how I feel. And I want to offer support myself if I'm able to. Thanks.

[delsina363]

Hi Brentlyp:

I am new here also. I have always had a problem with anger. I am a very peaceful person. I am very private and do not have a lot of people in my life that I trust. The only thing that really angers me is when I feel like someone is bullying me, or when I feel like someone is disrespectful. The past year has been terrible. My Mom was ill (dementia) and I tried to convince my siblings she was in danger, but they would not listen. I begged them to help me, but they let me down. Long story short, my Mom had an accident (as I predicted) and is no longer with us. My siblings were my heros. But they let me down so bad, I fear, with my anger issues, that I will never speak to them again. I am now getting my boss upset, because when workers call and start insulting me, I really go on the defensive. I feel like I have so much RAGE in me. I get the lonely part too. Now, without my Mom or my siblings, I am pretty much alone. I do have a husband and two young daughters, but I do not get along with my husband, so only have my girls. It is so hard trying to stay positive for them day after day after day. Sorry, I am rambling I know. I just type really fast. I hope you feel a little better knowing you are not alone, someone out here is trying to deal with anger and loneliness too.

[Crissie254]

Hi there - your post really spoke to me because I am the same way. I am divorced, so it has been hard to watch people around me that are in happy relationships. And even though I have these little talks with myself about how everything is not always as it seems and that the path that I'm walking is different, some days it takes a lot of energy to try not to be angry and jealous. I wish that I had words that could help you.