Hi. Im new. DOnt know where to begin :)

[despairismymiddlename]

Hello. I just had the crazy idea to look for this online. I have been struggling with depression for a couple of years now. My husband doesnt want to hear about because he doesnt know how to deal with it. He doesnt understand and he doesnt try. I keep it all inside but the tears flow constantly. Maybe if i share and talk to others, i can begin to help myself?

[aim]

hello, despairismymiddlename, and welcome to the DU forums. I'm sorry your situation is so bad, and do please try to remember that people who have never been through depression can never truly understand it.

I'm speaking to you as someone who suffered a nervous breakdown which led to a pretty serious anxiety disorder and depression years ago. I was able to get through the depression successfully, but the anxiety just won't seem to go away... point is, your rainbow from the depression is there, please don't stop hoping for it and don't give up.

I hope you continue posting, and perhaps try the chat room that is connected to these forums... lots of wonderful and supportive people in there who really do understand.

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

Welcome ((((((((((((( despairismymiddlename )))))))))))))))))

Glad you found this forum, it is a helpful site. So much to read and post to.

It is hard to deal with depression and must admit that I have found, those that do not deal with depression do not always understand. The chat room is a great place to start, meet people in the same situation. Great support and understanding goes on in there.

Hope to see you there.

Warmie

[despairismymiddlename]

I cant seem to find the chat room! Hahaha!! Im a technology imbecile javascript:emoticon(':wink:') Can you post a link? Thank You for responding to my post!

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

http://www.depression-understood.org/ma ... nchat1.htm

Also at the top of the screen you should see

*Home *Information Centre * Community *Depression Chat Rooms

either way should get you there.

((((((((((( despairismymiddlename ))))))))))))))))))

Jeanie

[aim]

Hi again, despair. I know searching for your rainbow can be exhausting, but please, don't give up! Keep looking, waiting, hoping and praying for relief, ok? And I hope you found your way into the chat room...

[despairismymiddlename]

Thank you! I am trying to find the chatroom. Tonight i let loose some of the things on my mind to my husband. hahahaha! There was fear in his eyes. I dont mean to be so depressing to him. I always feel like i could cry at any given moment. If i dont change I fear he will leave! That would be the icing huh?!!

[georgiapeach]

((((((((((((((((( des )))))))))))))))))))))))))
welcome to the forums! hope you do make it to the chat. there are many good people there to help you out including me! the forums are great too. lets put it this way, this site is one of the best sites out there to help you. i've been here for a little over a yr and just watching all the different people come in and outta the chat and the forum is incrediable and you learn so much from them since they are all over the world! so happy to see you found us!

[aim]

hi again, despair...hm. we have to make your middle name rainbow soon! Just be honest with your husband, is the best advice I can give. Show him some information on depression from the internet, maybe? Help him understand what you're going through. Couple's counseling, perhaps?

I hope you find the chat room too. But keep posting here as well! Hang in there, despair... life will get better.

[Monty]

Glad you found this site. I agree that is an excellent place to come when you are feeling that you need to have someone listen.

My mom was ill for a long time with depression, and I know how helpless I felt. Sometimes having someone you love so much, so terribly ill is one of the scariest things you can every experience. I have found couples counselling very helpful, but that isn't for everyone.

I was in a marriage that lasted a long time. He took me to my appointments since I couldn't get there on my own. He also came in to the office for my appointments, except for the ones where I saw a counsellor. Those were reserved as being my time to unload, with someone who wasn't so affected by what was happening in my life.

For me it always worked to have him come in with me, at least he could get some kind of idea of what a professional thought of the situation. That I wasn't just blowing my life all out of proportion. I know that there are lots though that wouldn't consider that. I think I was desperately trying to get him to understand, even though he didn't seem capable of that.

He is a very intelligent man but he just couldn't get into the head space of a person that suffers from depression. He could deal with facts really well, but when it came to emotions, he just couldn't do it. I realize, much too late that I was expecting him to do something, or feel something, that just wasn't in his repetoire. I would encourage him to read books on depression. BTW I would heartily suggest all to do that, those that suffer from the depression and those that have a loved one coping with trying to live with them. For me, seeing that my situation wasn't unique, was of great comfort. I wasn't an anamolly in this world. I know that doesn't work for everyone though.

I found that I received a lot of relief in talking to others. It does make my load easierI was able to make the connection with some other people that suffer from depressions, for support groups, and I think that is how I made it through. Posting here has given me quite a lift in a time in my life that is very confusing.

That is why I continue coming to this site everyday. It is a high point for me.

I was very sick for a very long period of time and want to do anything I can to try to help anyone through times that I went through. I know how life-saving it can be, to feel that there is some kind of hope.

[Emotional_77]

I'm sorry to hear about your husband and he doesnt want to be involved, that must be hard to handle that on its own. The people in these forums and chat rooms are very supportive and caring, I am sure you will find this place welcoming and never want to leave.

[aim]

Hi all! Des - hope you come back soon! We're all here waiting to support you - please know that!

Totally agreed that everyone should read about depression; those who suffer from it, and those who love someone who suffers from it.

Also... for anyone out there looking for an inspirational read, "Become a Better You," by Joel Osteen. I am not one to fall into preachers, but this man is... incredible and uplifting. The book seriously changed my life.

Well wishes to you all!!!