I feel welcomed here

[lostsoul89]

Even though I have never visited this forum before, it feels nostalgic. Feels somewhat of a relief writing here. Thank you for existing, those who made and those who contributed to the forum.

My story... Not really much of a story at all. I feel so alone, SO ALONE that I find whatever chance I get to drown myself in video games. I was supposed to have graduated last year from college. I was supposed to have been a top-of-the-class student, with a dream job and wife and kids. Today, I have nothing in my name. NOTHING. I live off my brother's money, so much of which I have wasted in ways which disgust me to no end.

The sad part is that I haven't even told him how I spent it. If you're wondering, I spent a good $400 on some escorts to finally get laid. Nothing justified that spending. Not even my desperation.

I often wonder where I went wrong that I'm in such a sad state. I have (had) so many dreams, yet they feel distant enough for another lifetime. I have a loving family which expects a lot from me. I don't know how to break it to them that I'm nothing but a lost soul. A hopeless, helpless, lost soul. Everyone of my high-school class graduated and has some kind of direction and job. I have nothing. I don't know how to tell them, I have nothing. It's as if my middle name is now "nothing"

Thank you for taking the time to read. Perhaps when I get time, I'll return with more to share.

[fallen]

the moment defines us, if you are a kind person then you are wise beyond measure.
take care

[4EverMe]

Hello, and welcome to this site!
I want you to know that you are neither worthless, helpless nor hopeless. You have worth beyond what you currently imagine. It is obvious to me that you also have a caring heart!

Why is it that the most sensitive among us seem to suffer most? Simply put, it is because while the world grows colder, we hold steadfastly to love. Fallen, your post defined it very well! To love others is the most important deed we will ever undertake. One day, when we face eternity? It will matter not how much money we had, nor all that we built financially. Our love is what we'll bring--the compassion built within.

Please continue to share with us. You are of worth, and we are listening!